An apology

No I'm not apologizing to the RPers. Nor am I apologizing to newbs/n00bs. Don't get your hopes up as that will be an unlikely event. Say having a revolver shoved to my head. No rpers and newbs/noobs. Don't get defensive over this thread and de-rep me for it because that would ****ing piss me off.

No I want to make an apology to CTR...and only CTR. And don't give me this, 'Use the PM system, buddy.' I want this seen and witnessed.

Information was leaked, I won't say by who, to me from the staff section. Things CTR had posted about me from who knows when and I took offense. I thought she was the sole reason I hadn't been considered for staff and snapped at her over MSN.

I was going through a lot of emotional ****. My grandfather dieing and as a result my grandmother becoming more...neurotic. My college finals. All that fun stuff that seems to pile on around May.

And no I'm not making excuses for my behavior. I just hate the feeling of having alienated someone I considered a friend over something so stupid as staff position on a forum. And before I get **** about me taking the internet so seriously, let me tell you, there are people behind these words. People with feelings. People who laugh and cry and rage and love. These words are not being generated by some machine but they are being written by a human hand which is inputting them into a machine. No machine could be so sincere.

This is no joke. There's no punchline. I'm not going to edit this post later on and say 'HAHA I got you.' It is what it is. It's the Spam Zone I realize but I'd like this to be conveyed in a very serious tone.

It's not everyday that I do one of these so it should be obvious, CTR, that I am being sincere. I did see some of the posts...but I didn't see the thought process behind them. I didn't see all of the posts. Paranoia will be the death of me someday. Those posts that were leaked put a dent in our friendship and I was stupid enough to let it. Let's move on from this...back to where we were before this.

 

I applaud you for making this, and really do hope she forgives you, I havnnt really met you but you seem like a good enough person to me at least....I know my input here means absolutely ****, but I'm rooting for you two. This shows alot of maturity, and it takes areal pair of nuts to leave yourself open like this, so, *claps*

 

Things happen and sometimes things get said that are wrong. It takes a big person to apologize and all. I hope she sees it and considers that. You are a cool person to me and I do think you'd also have made a good staff but in the end, it's still just awesome you are here, whether staff or not. You do help out and do things and not all of us can be there. Stay cool and I hear you about finals and all the real life crap going on. It's just that crappy time of year for quite a few of us. I hope things get better for you.

 

I would really really like that, my life has been ****ing **** too lately, I know what that is like and it killed me that I had hurt you.

I'm sorry too.


*clings* ​

 

-claps and tears from the sidelines-

Now CtR will be happy.

 

:wow: :wow: :wow: You people have a lot of post things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

For a minute there I didn't think you would see it. xD

*hug*

EDIT:

Okay who is the newb?

 

xD trust me, this site has it's ways.

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LMFAO​

 

*Claps like Paula Abdoul*
Nice to see friendships pacthed up!
=D

 

Yes, yes, who is the newb? Now that this is over. I demand answers and pizza.

 

dis is juss bootiful.

 

...and khv was better because of it...