Well, it feels like I have no purpose here. I'm not really good at anything and everything that I tried I fail miserably. The only thing I'm good at is listening to music XD and reading, but that is not a very big accomplishment. I'm not really aloud to do anything without my family going all wacko and start to get all freaky on me thinking of the worse cases possible of thing that might happen to me. For example, I told them I wanted to go traveling before I go to college. They say its not goona happen. They say that I could do that after college. Although, I have no idea what college I want to go to or what I want to be. For them, they have everything planned out for me and they tell me what I'm going to do, not caring on what makes me happy. All I want to do is some soul searching by traveling Eurpoe maybe, and whenever I find my answeres. I want to go to college in London. Although they do not seem to understand, I tell my some of my family my plans and they ask me why. I don't say anything because I'm scared of hurting their feelings. When mine is getting hurt in the process. T.T Then at school, it feels like everything is crashing down around me. I'm losing friends, because I'm trying to be a good friend to someone else, but ended up making them look bad. So now all my friends their are stuck in between to choose on whose side they are picking. Although it seems like they are choosing his and I'm left in the cold like a lonely icicle on a tree when it starts to get cold. They promise to hang out with me and once we plan something then end up backing out the last minute. Even though come to find out they ended up doing something with him, and me being at home upset. I wish it is as easy to make new friends but those things don't come so easy for me. Does God think that I should be an outcast or am I going crazy? Then I find out that a very good friend of mine is moving farther away from California and going to live all the way across the U.S. This just really upsets me and this is not the first time I hd a friend who had to do this, and then we ended up growing further and further away. I'm hoping that this is ot the case with this friend. This just really uosets me. So in this case my rant is over and I just need a lot of advice. So if anyone is happy enough to give me some, then thanks.
How do you know if you actually have a true friend or not? Although, I know a friend is suppose to be trustworthy and liable, but when you actually start to express to them that you feel that they are your best friend. They seem to accept it and get excited that we became so close as friends. Suddenly you start to go to different places with each other and meet each other's families, all of a sudden they start to act strange. Secondly, when you start to express certain feeling about certain things, they shy away. I find it kind of strange that they once I try to talk to them, they never answer back to your phone calls or they start to blow you off. Then when you express your feelings about them blowing you off or asking them if we are still friends are not. They begin to get really upset, because I'm questioning our friendship. So just help me with this, are we growing apart or was she my real friend to begin with? (Sorry for ranting :()
Hey everyone, I'm new here,(I guess you would know that XD lol) so I am open to any new friends. So yeah.
