"...I know you don't agree with me..." Sora said softly, looking away. "But I've been with you for a long time, Kai. And whenever I go through something rough, you always carry the burden yourself. So don't think you have it too easy, because unfortunately, you don't." Of course he wished Kairi had an easy life. But because of the trouble that seemed to be attracted to him, he knew that wasn't going to happen. When he felt sorrow, Kairi felt sorrow. They were connected.
After my next post, I have to go. I'll be on around 12:30 or 1 my time (I'm pretty sure xD).
Sora shook his head slightly, his smile disappearing. "No, Kairi..." he said softly. "We've all been through rough times. You're just thinking of me and Namine because of what happened yesterday." Alright, so maybe that was a bit of stretch. After all, Sora had been hit the hardest last winter, and then Namine soon after him. But just because they were the ones directly targeted didn't mean that Kairi and Roxas didn't have it hard too.
Sora frowned slightly, turning his hand on Kairi's so that he held hers. He lowered it slightly, letting their hands sit between them. "Hey," he said softly, forcing a small smile. "It's alright."
Sora turned his head, finally looking at Kairi. "There's nothing to be sorry for," he said softly. "Stuff happens." People are bound to get hurt in dangerous situations like that, he thought. I'm just glad it was me, because I know that I can handle it. He was sure Roxas could tolerate pain too, but that didn't change Sora's feelings--if it had to happen to anyone, he wanted it to be him and not his friends.
Sora kept his head down, unmoving. Kairi obviously had nothing to say to that, and honestly, neither did he. He wouldn't add anything more to this conversation unless Kairi asked him something--he wouldn't just come out and say how painful the whole experience was. That would only make Kairi feel more concerned.
Sora felt himself become even more tense, which he didn't even know was possible. He slowly took in a breath, trying to keep himself apathetic for Kairi's sake. "Mostly just sore," he said softly, honestly. "I have a nasty burn on my side though...probably has a scar by now," his voice was softer for the last bit, but he still said it clearly and loudly enough for Kairi to hear it. There was no point in hiding the truth from her--she was great at seeing through lies.
Sora stopped holding his hands together and wiped them on his jeans before lifting the hand opposite of the shoulder Kairi had her hand on. He brought it up and sat it lightly on hers, his head staying down.
Sora exhaled a breath at Kairi's touch. "The rest you know, more or less," he said. "Roxas and I eventually took him down; you called, then we came to you and Namine." He blinked, staying in his current position and staying very tense. He didn't like that he had just told Kairi all that, but at least he didn't tell her about the most prominent wound he had. However, since he was always honest with her, he would tell her if she asked.
Sora unclasped his hands, and then re-clasped them. "Roxas found me," he responded. "Roxas showed up, understood enough of the situation, and then helped me." Sora furrowed his eyebrows slightly, thinking of the wound he got on his side from the flaming Keyblade. I probably have a new scar, he mused, completely unamused.
Sora swallowed, leaning forward on his seat. He let his elbows rest on his knees, his hands still clamped in front of him. "Yeah," he said, having a hard time admitting that. Not only was it embarrassing to lose a fight, but he also knew the seriousness of what could have happened if he did end up failing. He, the real Sora, would have died.
Sora nodded, shifting his hands slightly. He didn't like what he was about to say next, but in order for Kairi to know and understand, he had to say it... "He had me beat, Kai," he said softly, nearly whispering. "I couldn't defeat him on my own. I was too weak from--" He wisely stopped himself, knowing that he had already said more than he would have liked to have.
Sora shrugged slightly, clamping his hands together in his lap. He kept his gaze downward, hearing the concern in Kairi's voice. She didn't even know the half of it... "Well," he continued, ending his thoughts. "Somehow the machine overloaded and exploded. And it released a dark version of myself into the world. It wasn't just a battle in my heart, Kai, it was a real battle, right there in the castle."
Sora looked up at Kairi, mentioning something he forgot before. "It basically electrocuted me," he said simply, looking in Kairi's eyes before he lowered his gaze again. "Eventually, they turned the machine on too high and..." Sora cut himself off, deciding to say it in a way Kairi would understand. "Kairi...do you remember when we fought the darkness in your heart?"
Sora kept his gaze downward, still not daring to look up at Kairi. He wasn't sure when he would feel comfortable looking up at her again. However, he didn't dwell on this--he continued speaking, hoping to get it over with. "They discussed what to do with me--like keep me alive or not--and then the knocked me over the head and hooked me up to this...thing. I don't even know how to describe it." Sora took in a breath, trying to phrase his words carefully. "Whatever it was, it was what they were going to use to take Namine's powers. I'm just glad it didn't come to that for her..." he trailed off, thinking of how excruciatingly painful it had been for him.
Sora nodded faintly, not looking Kairi in the eye. He couldn't bear to, knowing that the truth would upset her. But being kept in the dark would upset her more. Maybe, anyway. The truth was pretty bad...Sora inhaled a breath and then started. "I was just finishing hiding the last guard when somebody came at me from behind. He didn't hurt me, he just put a hand across my mouth and a gun to my head. He took me back to this other room where a bunch of men were gathered."
Sora looked away, his eyes wandering down and then over to the television. "Um..." he started slowly, uncertain. He reached across Kairi's lap and grabbed the remote, which was on the other side of her. He held it in front of him and then pushed the power button, turning off the TV. If Kairi really wanted to know, then he would tell her. But he would tell her with no distractions. "...Are you sure you want to know?" he asked softly, his eyes going up to hers and then back down to his lap again.
Sora turned to face the girl beside him, his eyes immediately finding hers. "Yeah, Kai?" he asked quietly, matching her tone of voice.
Sora softly returned Kairi's smile as he approached her, holding her gaze until he turned and sat himself down on the couch beside her.
Sora rubbed the back of his head, brushing over the spikes but not messing them up. As he reentered the living room, he lowered his hand to his side and looked over to see that Kairi was back on the couch, and apparently she had turned off the DVD player. He approached her softly, calm.
