Yeah, I only entered competitions of 'forms' mostly because Shaolin, ju jitzu and some other stuff I know really aren't allowed in competitions. We practice in class more. I did two competitions and one I was disqualified from so never bothered to try again...something about not kicking someone's leg...don't ask. I still don't get it! Anywhoo, questions for Neku! Have you ever dyed your hair? What is your favorite band/singer at the moment? (Everyone asks this so why not) What was your first impression of me? Did it get better with time? What is the best place on your travels that you visited and why? Do your parent(s) wish you'd cut that hair? (mine do) Do you or have you owned any pets?
It was bound to happen. :)
Nope...if I want something 'flat' I'll usually just drink some juice of some kind. Flat soda makes me want to barf unfortunately. I think the only time I can drink flat soda like ginger ale is if I'm sick so it relaxes my stomach some but I also chill it a lot to do so.
I know how you feel. I always get kind of down around Christmas and New Years because my grandfather went into the hospital on Christmas and died on New Years. One of the things that does lift me up is to go look at pictures of my grandfather and to recall all of the things we did get to do together while he was alive and I admired him because he did teach me a lot and was just a great person to me. Others like my great grandmother dying while I was in the army hurt too but this is the trick. Remembering the person while she was alive is important and knowing that although you wish you could have had more time, you did get to know her at all is great and special. It may always hurt somewhat to know she's not there anymore but at the same time, she left her impression on you and she would be happy you remember her and the good times you had rather than just focusing on her death which of course sucks. Also, if you need to cry to let it out, do, but don't let it just be her death as your main focus, because you love her for when she lived.
The tips here are great and also you may want to try to find something 'interesting' in the classes you have to take so that you have a will to study more again. It could be that school classes have become kind of redundant to you and that interest just is waning. I agree that talking to your parents on plans to help you study might be a good idea as well as making yourself a sort of ritual pact like 'I won't do this fun thing until after I do this mandatory thing' as Nashida said. Another idea may be to go to the teacher sometime of classes you feel are dropping and ask the teacher why he/she chose the field of study that they are teaching you and that you are looking for some inspiration to get you to like the class more. I.e. ask them for what made them like math or science etc and maybe it will help you find something worthwhile to get back into it a bit more. Also, at school...don't know if it's at your school, but in mine when I went to High School at least, there were some clubs I joined such as science club etc that helped me see why it could be cooler and got me more connected to wanting to learn. I also went up to a math teacher and said I just see no point to geometry, though I aced his class the year before in Algebra and he showed me some cool things with it that helped me focus. This was a big accomplishment because I have ADHD.
Some girls have a very protective nature and also just don't trust guys much. Usually it means that either she's very dominant and controlling and mistrusting and trying to guilt you, OR that she is very co-dependent, wants someone to be there and has a low self-esteem, but acts tough. There's nothing wrong with talking to other girls if you are dating and after having gone out with a girl that tried to control my 'habits' of being friends with anyone and hanging around with whoever I wanted, I can say I did the smart thing and when she 'dumped me' for talking to two girls I had known for 5 years, I told her 'thank you'. There honestly was no way to make her happy and just be around only her all the time and certainly I don't think people should feel guilty about having any friends as those are hard to come by. Guys and girls that do this jealousy thing need to grow up because I really don't think 'jealousy' is a real part of love, despite how some movies and books all try to act like it is. If someone has a decent self-esteem and isn't either depressed all the time or arrogant, they would know that life can't just be centered around a girl/boyfriend. Married people have to get out and go hang with other friends now and then. Otherwise the marriage will just get really dull. Now, I'm curious why you say this. You said above she was a friend, so if she was just a friend, what has changed now? Did you 'like' her before? I'd actually think this through and see if your feelings are right in all this. Just breaking up with someone and then asking the girl who you said was just a friend prior seems like you are either listening to this girl you went out with and doing it as a thing of she told you to, out of revenge or because you were actually interested in this girl before. So think on it, because the last thing you want to do is use this other girl as a 'fill-in' for a break up and you'd want to actually be genuine on it before making a move like that. That would be my suggestion any way because as JustaNobody said, it does give the impression of being a drifter, and it also kind of contradicts what you said earlier.
I write this in general to several people here who had problems as I scanned through so forgive me if it's a bit lengthy, trying to cover a variety of topics. I hope any of it helps. Weight is always a fussy issue. There are so many things that people associate with being overweight like the person doesn't exercise enough, eats like a pig etc. These of course get told to the person overweight and make the person feel worse. Weight can be controlled but it is a real fight in people with slow metabolisms because even if they eat to other people's habits, they still can gain weight. That's the real enemy. Self Esteem is a hard thing to just 'get' to happen, so I can understand anyone's frustration. Sometimes people mistake self-esteem for arrogance and become egotistical. Self esteem really is just about self-respect and also learning to respect others. We all have our faults so ignoring them isn't really as much a self-esteem thing as is seeing them and working on them to make them lesser faults. Also, seeing your good traits is key to a healthy feeling about the self. I agree with what you said and if you can look in the mirror and see that you are a decent person, that's good. Also, part of self-esteem can be looking in the mirror and seeing well...if you don't like some aesthetic things you can change quite a few. If you hate your hair, go to a salon and talk with a stylist and ask what a good style would be for the hair type you have and that would go better with your face. This can help a lot to change your whole facial appearance surprisingly enough. If your clothes don't represent your true depth, try getting some that help you do that but also try to get clothes that don't represent too much in the 'depression' department. Your clothes really do represent more to yourself and others than people assume so that's something to work on. Physical things like zits or weight, whether to plump or thin to your tastes...(note I said 'your' tastes and not others here) can also be worked on and advice on how to can be given by others if it's something you want to change. Remember though that anything you want to change should always be because -you- want to and feel it would help -you- feel better. Also, other than changing clothes and hair, trimming fingernails, being clean and such, things to fix up yourself is well...not going to happen over night. It takes effort, but don't hate yourself for it. Sometimes watching the changes happen can be exhilarating. Parents and others in school can be pains for self-esteem. Parents especially sometimes have the biggest fault of placing way too many expectations on kids. Some parents get this dream in their heads that a kid is going to do what they could not in their lives, such as being super demanding on great grades so the kid can go to college and be a genius etc. In the end, parents that push too hard make anyone feel like crap. However, this is where you have to be real to yourself and also not too hard on yourself. Take what they say as constructive criticism and realize they are 'human too'. If what they say just isn't in your ability to do, then you just try your best and remember that part of their demands probably are based on their own weaknesses when they were your age. They just want you to have it better than they did. However, you are going to go through your own trials, battles with grades, etc. It's no longer their fight but to help coax you to keep up the battle. It's yours. So, I'd say not to just blow them off, but at the same time, realize where they are coming from that they just want you to be successful. In the end though, you do your best and hold your head up high because you did do your best and that's what your parents and others are just going to have to accept. Sometimes parents need a dose of reality too. Let their words to you just mean that they want you to do your best and then it won't hurt as much. Rejection - That is a part of life and as much as I hate to say it, it's good to learn it in your childhood and teenage years because adults who don't know it...my god they can be so annoying. Most people who don't know it as teens ...got everything they wanted from parents and those around them and so when the really real world smacks them in the face, they have no idea what to do. They also are often very arrogant and ask the 'how dare you?' question and some even become great stalkers etc. As much as it hurts for a girl or guy to say no to you, there -will- be others who will say yes. Some of those relationships will work and some will fail. It's part of life to accept it and it hurts but hating yourself certainly won't help make the future dates etc even possible. Think of it that way that if you go and get down on yourself too much, who's going to want to be with you then? Instead, the best option is to just try to work on some faults, and if someone just says no to you straight out, it simply means the person isn't interested in you in that way. There may be nothing wrong with you at all. So why be hard on yourself for it? Hope this helps any of you who have posted here and I hope things get better for all of you who are having problems with self-esteem. Self-esteem is really just self-respect which is a state of being in the end. It takes a while to work up, especially for those who are shy, were picked on a lot, or where others have such high demands that can't possibly be met. It's a battle to find the real you and be yourself, but you can do it with time and you will be happier for it. As you are teenagers or young adults now, you all can have ideas on what a 'quality' person is to you and it may not be what your parents or others who are so into fads and name brands consider it to be. This by no means makes you weaker. In the end, it may make you stronger.
I do agree the 'one gun a month' thing sounds good to me too unless someone is doing some business like a shooting range. I just think it was argued because of the reason I said because people are worried anymore that if we give up any parts of rights we have the potential to utterly lose them. I would be for the rule pretty much everywhere in this country if not for that reason. There is a mandatory background check on anyone who purchases a gun. Usually background checks take a week or two here in NY. Not sure about everywhere but many states are like that. If you have a criminal history you automatically disqualify and age is a factor. Other than that, I think anyone can get a gun but has to go through the waiting process so people don't tend to be able to walk in somewhere and buy a gun and walk out the same day.
Hooray! Now I get to ask other people questions again! And up is our great Admin, Neku. ^_^ SooOOoo.... What kind of martial arts do you take? (I take martial arts too so of course curious) Do you ever enter competitions? How do you like your new job on the boards so far as our l337 leader of the monkey crew? What do you think is the worst part of your duty here? What is the best part of your duty here? What is your favorite dessert? Do you know any other languages than English? What is the price of tea in China?
The problem I think would be that every time a 'right' is modified, people who are against it even existing have won a victory and will try again for more ways to take away the right. The little amendments to rights happens enough that we've lost some rights except as a shadow of a memory. Also, it really isn't having an effect on the people it should have the effect on. Often rights like this that are adjusted still make the criminals stronger while others suffer for it. If it was not for the fact that people so against something would do this, the 'one gun a month' issue would have been no problem. Right now so many of our rights have been slipping away and most people don't want to move to a fascist state where we can't go back and reverse decisions.
Well, I hope they don't ground you since it's summer and all but what you might want to do to get back in their favor is try to go to the library or read up on some subjects that you might be taking next year to show you care about your grades and tell them you are disappointed in the grades and will do better. If you don't mention the grounding part they may let go of the concept if they are pondering it then. They just need to see you are applying yourself as they seem to regard education grades as very important. I wish you luck. You should be able to block him from any email or MSN unless for some reason you gave out your password to him for these things. You may want to go ahead and change your password to your email and MSN accounts and that may help you. As for what to do, if he's on MSN, you have to think that you aren't even facing him 'personally' so get up the nerve and tell him to just leave you alone. He even trips and says to block him throughout the conversation you two had so if he talks to you again, just tell him he's on 'ignore' and that you are moving on with your life. Tell him you didn't play games and that things just didn't work out and that talking about it isn't going to change things and say goodbye. Make it -real- and you don't have to be mean but just then if he messages you, ignore the messages. If he calls you, look at the caller ID on your phone before picking it up. If he emails you, block the address and automatically delete the emails. Keep the fight up to ignore him and if he continues, do your parents know about this person? If so, you may want to tell them this guy is -very- persistent and will not leave you alone and sometimes a parent has no qualms about telling some stalkerish boy to back off. Dads are especially effective as this but a mom who can be strict is also enough to get it through to them by saying 'if you don't stop, I will be calling the cops'. Your parents may be upset at you but they'd pretty much say what others have and to just 'ignore' him and never respond to him regardless of what he says and/or they may just call the cops if he's getting that weird on you any way. The biggest thing here is to not entertain a person like this. He's saying 'ignore me' and 'block me' etc. Then he insults you and whines and moans as you two talk. You are basically making yourself a victim by talking to him at all anymore and where I cut off the convo above is exactly where you should have told him "we aren't ever getting back together, you need to move on. Peace be with you. I won't be guilted and neither should you be. Let's just move on. I won't be talking to you anymore or responding so don't message me. Goodbye". Something to that effect. He's clingy and being this way because he's not used to rejection but really it is a fact of life he's going to have to face. Better he learns it when young. KHManiac101 What you are doing is normal as Marluxia said. Teenagers question many things and it is good you do. If you don't come up with answers, that is fine too. A lot of people are compelled to have to find the answer right away and fill something with anything to get by and you don't have to do that. You can have the right and ability to just say 'at this moment I do not know' and keep searching. It helps keep your mind open. Explore things and try to not be hard on yourself as this is a great transition time for you. If you didn't think about things, something would be wrong. The world is a big place and there is so much out there to think about and some of it will make you sad but other things can make you happy too or help you to think on what you would like to do in your life and help you set up goals for the future and what your occupation might be. I hope you will feel better about things and more confident.
You are definitely not the only one who says it and no need to apologize. :) Both mental issues have been constantly used as referring to the same condition and I was very shocked to hear they weren't the same when even television shows would call MPD as schizophrenia. It's a very common mistake.
Make it rain and the spider will fall down the water spout!
I like how you included your name there. lol Sorry, no idea.
That sucks. You might want to get yourself some water to drink steadily as it sounds like you have heat exhaustion.
Soul Eater pretty much transformed along with Riku as he took his path from Twilight to the Dawn. It was normal all through KH2 and may have been altering after LoD that we don't see but is near complete when he encounters the others in TWTNW. He was coming out of the Darkness and the blade was altering along with him. Either it was finished before or completed after he was hit with Ansem's blast. I doubt encountering his friends had anything to do with it so much as it was just a symbolic metamorphosis in both Riku's spirit and the Soul Eater sword as he was coming to the completion of his journey to Dawn. Soul Eater never really disappeared and changed to WttD. We just did not 'see' the transformation it was undergoing. At least as far as I recall. Way to the Dawn is definitely Soul Eater as even in the form of Way to the Dawn, at the near end of the game Riku calls it Soul Eater if you click on him at I believe the Altar of Naught.
I have no idea how Ursula was brought back. I did ponder perhaps it was done the same way Oogie Boogie was brought back since Maleficent was responsible for that. However, there's no proof and it could be I guess somehow the void spit her butt back out of it. >.> Ursula..and Atlantica on the whole in Kh2 were kind of just there as some extra thing to do that was different than just fighting. I didn't mind it but it wasn't too exciting. Ursula was the easiest boss in KH2 to put down and if I were Nomura, I wouldn't bring her back again because this time she died of a SONG. Poor unfortunate soul will never live that one down.
In a way, I thought Maleficent was there to do her plots but again, they were small time in comparison to what others had planned. Maleficent in KH was said by Leon to have come there after Ansem and the others fled the castle 9 years before and had been doing research and what not. She caused a lot of problems with the Heartless she could control and others just ran a muck. Those who survived ended up in Traverse Town. However, her plot with the Princesses of Heart and all made her the pawn she was trying to make Riku because Xehanort's Heartless was scheming all along and she basically gave him a way possibly to getting out and around. When Rikunort stabbed her, of course that was more Xehanort's Heartless doing the act than Riku. In CoM she made a brief appearance because Riku ended up there and they fought and she left. Zexion makes the comment she was there but had been dealt with. In KH2, she again comes out but this time, there's not just one being trying to go around her and use her etc. There is the Organization and basically she was out trumped, out matched and outclassed. She only helped Sora either because Riku convinced her somehow or because she wanted him to take them out since they were ruining her plans for conquest by being more powerful and doing their own damages. She also obviously wanted their power and territory once the Nobodies drew back to their world. I do agree she seemed kind of pathetic all through it with the schemes of hers and Pete's just being trounced by either Sora or the Organization repeatedly. I did hope for a good dragon battle again but ah well. Maybe she will be more effective in KH3 and it seems we'll see her in BBS for sure. It just does seem though Nomura has cast her as the villain that something always follows in shadow behind her to trounce out and do things, or she's a scavenger taking over other people's properties etc.
Take care and I hope sometime you'll venture back around the forums. I didn't really get to know you but from what I saw of your posts you were cool. Be well and I hope the depression and all goes away and you get a break.
Hmm, lots of cheese, mushrooms, tomato chunks, some garlic butter sauce on the side, green peppers and occasionally some sausage. Bake it now so that you can eat some. ^_^ Hmm, I love both. Depends on my mood though I do drink tea more. I only tend to drink coffee when I go out to restaurants. I have. I've been good lately though. >.> There was a point where I called Trodgor my uncie Trodgie. To finish college! It takes forever. I bet it's more out of boredom. Noez! It's mine. I know some Japanese but am not proficient in it yet. I am currently learning it. They are? Never thought of most of them as rants. Yes! Especially chocolate peanut butter pie. Right now, Code Geass Axel. Commit it to memory! Si, vivo en Nuevo York.
