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Dropping her spoon back into her bowl, Tinarah seemed to have lost the ability to function for a moment, as she looked at her shaking hands before running them through her hair to cover up how badly she was being hit with this words, and the talk about the Light Chaser and the way he might have manipulated everything she had gone through during the time in that realm. Tinarah remembered then the words spoken to her by the Light Chaser when he had come to hurt or kill Stamatis and Gero "Good work, Tinarah. There were other variations of my plan that would have led to this result but, complex as this was, this was a favorite of mine. Luring Stamatis out and away from the Council was more difficult than I would like to admit. I went through such effort to go for the oldest trick in the book. Divide and conquer." He knew all along, he knew what she would go through. The only reason she was allowed those good times was so that he could hurt the people she cared about. Tinarah didn't want to believe that the Light Chaser was that powerful, but she had seen first hand. Three masters against him, and he still won no problem. Tinarah had a feeling the only reason she escaped was because he allowed it. Just how much of a pawn of his was she?

There was a promise she had made to A, but she didn't know if she could keep it any longer. Perhaps it was too soon to tell, after all, Aria was just trying to help, but she was just a girl only slightly older than she, perhaps she was mistaken, perhaps it was better to ask Stamatis or Gero. Would they stop her from going back? It was likely she would need one of them to train her if she ever wanted to go back anyways. She would have to tell at least one of them at some point her plan if it was ever going to work.

Tinarah lowered her hand to her chest gripping it slightly as she leaned over her bowl of soup, a few tears dropping in. While one arm was gripping her chest, the other gripped her still scarred wrist. "Why does this hurt so much more than the scars ever did?" She asked. Knowing that her relationship with the two men that she looked up to more than anyone could have very well been an illusion controlled by the Light Chaser just to draw them out and hurt them. "I don't want to be his pawn. I don't want to be his tool to hurt people, but I have already let him make me into that, and I can't stop. I can't cut all those ties I made while he had that control. And it hurts. It was my fault Stamatis got hurt in the first place. If I didn't bother forming a relationship with him here it could keep him safe, but I can't stand the thought of just walking away... I can't do it." Tinarah cried as she lowered her hands staring at how they shook for a moment before looking up at Aria.

"Thank you... for all this, for being here for me, but.... I can't promise you anything. I don't think... my heart will let me rebuild again." She admitted. When they first met her heart was surrounded by a wall, she wouldn't let anyone in, so she didn't bother talking to anyone. When she had thought that Chrono pushed her off the bridge, her heart had broken, and it seemed that parts of it leaked out from the wall. Between Stamatis and Fost they had collected those pieces and slowly broke down the wall, and helped her learn to do it as well. Slowly her heart was pieced back together, but still fragile and healing when she left. With Mika and Torrin it had shattered again, this time she was left on her own to rebuild and she put up another wall this time, to try and keep herself from breaking and losing the pieces again. She gave herself goals to work towards. The wall included bricks with names and goals on them, instead of a solid grey that kept her trapped. She never was able to build it as solid as before, soft spots that Stamatis made still remained, like the way he slowly coaxed her into talking about her problems instead of hiding completely. That being said with the new wall in place trying to protect a heart that had been shattered and rebuilt far too many times. Her heart felt like it bore more scars than she did.

Finally Tinarah gave up on eating and placed her half eaten sandwich and bowl of soup to the side. It was a bad habit that she had of not eating enough when she was upset and never finishing her food. Still she couldn't even think of food right now as she grabbed her hot chocolate and sipped it slowly as Aria kept going on waving a straw in her face. Tinarah chuckled through her tears, but it still wasn't much of one. Her happiness was more of an illusion than anything. "You know I get the first swing right?" She finally said after a long moment of silence.

Moments later Take appeared at the door and invited them for a run. "I can't promise I can run. It has been a long time since I have even walked a substantial amount, but fresh air could do me some good." Tinarah stated wiping the tears from her eyes. Even the fresh air she got since leaving, she was either too focused on trying to survive, or stay awake to even appreciate it. Perhaps it was time to get some fresh air. "Come with me?" She asked Aria, knowing she wasn't going to be able to keep up and not wanting to end up alone in a place she was mostly unfamiliar with. ​

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A knock at the door alerted Tinarah to Aria's arrival. The girl soon pushed open the door and stepped inside the room with a cart full of delicious smelling food and drink. Tinarah giggled a little bit at Aria's extreme way of showing off the food. It was quite entertaining to see in the end. "Thank you, it smells good." She said quietly picking up a bowl of soup and starting to eat. As she did the knots in her stomach started to loosen, allowing the food to nourish her. While she had been struggling to eat a lot of food at once, every time she did eat, it made her feel a little better. Tinarah knew that she wouldn't be back to full health and a healthy weight for a while, but every time she ate she was feeling a little better. It made Tinarah wonder how Gero was doing. He must have been in worse shape than she was but he seemed to be doing pretty okay, or perhaps he was just better at hiding it than she was.

Clearly she wasn't good at hiding anything as Aria asked her what was wrong. Setting down her soup and picking up her grill cheese instead, Tinarah hesitated before talking. "I contacted him.... He doesn't seem to know me at all. When I called Stamatis he said he didn't remember but his heart told him it was true, but Uncle Fost.... nothing." Tinarah admitted. Perhaps that wasn't entirely true, but it felt like it. "I tried to explain, and he just told me we would be in contact... If feels like I am losing a family again..." Tinarah tried to explain before turning her mind to what she wanted to ask Aria before she had left to make them food.

"Aria... You spoke of Fost like... you knew him? Or at least you knew what he was up to. I never even got that much, Stamatis once explained why Uncle Fost couldn't have been the one training me, and after that he took on a student so I assumed he was just at another castle training for all that time.... and maybe he was, I don't know, but he was never one to talk much about what he was up to, that is why I am curious how you knew. I am sorry if I am being pushy. It just seems... you know everyone, and I don't even know myself anymore. Anyone I thought I knew it isn't the same anymore." Tinarah finally took a deep breath before admitting "I'm lost Aria. I don't know what I am doing any more. Every time I thought I find what I was fighting for or a place I belonged it has changed and now sitting here, all I can think of is going back and stopping that other realm from falling into it's fate. I know that you need help here, but my heart is there." She stated, hoping Aria would understand and not try and talk her out of it. ​

Of course another had to come out. Kiara was too busy fighting the battle to get a good enough look at him, but he made a comment about her looking familiar as Lima seemed annoyed by that. At least Uniform was now deal with thanks to the help of Vallus. "I don't know, maybe because everyone in this realm is out to fucking get me?" Kiara hissed getting more and more fed up with the situation as time went on. It wasn't the fact people knew her that was getting on her nerves. It was the fact that everyone who did know her were people she didn't particularly get along with and were actively making her life a living hell. She was almost tempted to run after Uniform and finish him off if it wasn't for the traps the other kid put in place.

Of course there was also talk about the new vessel arriving and Lima started to dart to get it. Kiara flicked her wrist trying to catch Lima with her whip to slow them down. "Don't let her get that pod! We can't let Nequa have her new form. We need to kill her now while she is still weak!" Kiara called out to the rest of her team as she put a fire wall around the pod to keep it safe for the time being turning her attention to Lima once more. Of course they needed to get into that castle but dealing with those outside would have to come first. They couldn't afford to rush in without dealing with this bits at a time. They had enough trouble with Lima and Uniform, if they ran into their layer it would be suicide. They had to deal with things one part at a time as much as it bothered Kiara to do so. It wasn't like they had much other choice. ​

The way that Aria spoke about Uncle Fost. She spoke with a familiarity to his name, though she called him Master Fost, comparing him to the version here. This opened up a thousand more questions that Tinarah had on the subject. She had no clue that Aria would have known the man she had grown so close to, especially when he seemed so distant from most people. She counted herself lucky to have him come visit when he did. To have another person talk about him so casually, perhaps it was because of her ties to Gero she knew so much though. After all Gero was like her grand father.

Aria had declared that she would go make them hot chocolates and meet back in Tinarah's room. Tinarah supposed that her questions on Fost would have to wait. "I know he had his reasons..." Tinarah responded softly as she watched Aria leave the room. She sat at the piano for another minute, picking out the notes to another song she used to play with Stamatis before turning around and heading back down to the first floor where she could find her way back to her room. Part of the reason that she didn't want to go to Aria's, was that she wouldn't have known where to find it. Glancing back down the hall before going down the stairs, she looked to see if any of the keyblade masters were there, or any she cared about at least. Not seeing any she sighed and returned to her room.

Sitting on her bed, Tinarah kept thinking about Uncle Fost and what Aria said, why he didn't come. She thought about the panic she was feeling when she called him, and wondered what he was thinking at the time, what he might have been thinking now. Did he know they were safe? Did he care? Even if he didn't care for her, she would have thought that he would at least care for Stamatis. Without even thinking about it, Tinarah summoned her keyblade to her lap. Looking at it for a moment she finally planted it in the ground as she took a deep breath. "Uncle Fost." She spoke a little nervously as she focused herself on the spell.

"Why do you call me that?" A voice spoke up from the other end, a familiar voice that warmed Tinarah's heart a little even if he clearly didn't have the same fond memories for her that he used to. While it was disappointing, it was what she had expected in the end.

"Because... in another time... and realm, that is what you were to me. I mean you aren't really my uncle but you were like one. You rescued me and brought me to Master Stamatis to train, you would always come visit us. I... I just wanted to tell you that we all made it out, we are safe. Stamatis got hurt, but we are okay." In the end she didn't know what she was doing, what she was saying. Tinarah was trying her best to talk with Fost, but he wasn't exactly the same man she remembered. She knew that was only due to the fact that he didn't remember her the same as she remembered him, and she spent years trying to worm her way inside his heart so she would feel less alone, but now... for only a split second she regretted it, because it was causing her so much pain now as she spoke with him.

"Before you said that someone was trying to kill Stamatis and Gero. You must be mistaken. Gero is dead. What kind of joke are you playing here with this talk of other times and realms?" Straight to the point of course but she supposed that none of what she had been saying had been making much sense, Tinarah figured she at least had to try and explain it a bit.

"I am not mistaken. It is no joke. Please you have to believe me, search your heart. You might not remember me but somewhere in your heart you must know it was true, that we had that connection. Gero promised me! Listen there was another realm, that is where I found Gero, he had been trapped there for the last six years. We used my keyblade to escape it when I finally could summon it again. The Light Chaser sent us there." Search your feelings. You know it to be true. Her heart was begging him to have at least the same reaction to Stamatis, where he knew that she was at least telling the truth, knew that she meant something to him in another time and realm. There was still something there. Tinarah couldn't tell if there was anything there with Fost. She so desperately wanted him to remember. Call her kid and give her a bad time. She wanted to one day spar against him so he could see her growth. All these things and none of them felt possible anymore, not until she made it back.

"I see...we will be in contact, then." The line went dead and Tinarah was left in silence as her keyblade fell and then disappeared.

"I will hold you to that." Tinarah whispered into the silence. She hoped that it was a good thing that he would be in contact, but with his tone of voice it was impossible to tell. Perhaps he would try and remember her, or perhaps it was his way of making her stop bothering her. She didn't know, but if she didn't hear from him, she decided he would hear from her. Not until he remembered in some way, would she let this go. She couldn't lose him again. He was alive, he might not remember her, but he was alive. Tinarah knew things wouldn't go back to the way they were in the other realm, here Stamatis wasn't even her master, but she still wanted to try. She had walked away from her father, and knew now that she couldn't go back to him like this. She felt so distant from her brother after the events that she had been through. Stamatis and Fost were her family, and she didn't want to let go of them like she felt she did with her father and brother. She didn't want to lose them like she lost her mother. She wanted to keep them in her life and she was prepared to fight for it. ​

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