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Of bread and meat and grossness. ; ; How so?

Ohohohoho. ​

Thanks guys, the more the better. It helps with the creativity process. =P​

I feel like I'm losing my mind. Seriously.

I THINK IT'S BEEN SEVEN DAYS, MAKE IT STOOOOOOOOP.​

You mean my first name on the site? Jayn.
No idea whatsoever.
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"What's the meaning to life?".
Yes. ​

I hate my life.​

I lost my mother to those games. I miss her. :c ​

Yeah. It ended up a pile of...Stuff. What's wrong?

<<; Lemme try again. XDDD And yes. I feel better now. :=D: How are you?

I want you to go get the counseling. Don't think about it, just go. What it seems like to me is that you're thinking too much and over-analyzing things. And I say that because I do the same thing. But you have to stop thinking so much.

A lot of people don't know what they want to do. Some people end up going to college and studying something just because someone told them they should. I'm incredibly proud of you for even being in college, and you're insanely smart. I really think it's one of those things you have to push through right now.
Not everything is going to be interesting, unfortunately. Seriously that's my excuse now for the majority of the things we're doing in school, just so damn boring and I don't care about it. English is my best subject and I have a D in that class because we're doing a unit where we pretty much have to write a shitload of essays and I wouldn't mind but I don't give a damn about what we're talking about. The importance of school and stuff. And honestly, I'd rather be writing about how corrupt I think the school system is and researching holes in the "oh-so-perfect" curriculum. But it's one of those things I have to deal with. In your case, what I'd attempt doing when you're bored out of your mind is paying attention, staying away and trying to connect it to something interesting. I don't know exactly what you're being taught, but in my case where we're talking about boring essays I don't care about, to make it interesting for myself I've connected it to everything wrong and the complete opposite of what he's supposed to be teaching me. And for everything he's been talking about, it's become a bit more interesting since I've connected it to something. If there's no connection, there's no way you're going to listen and pay attention especially if it's just boring in general. Also, you might want to keep your laptop at home unless you really need it. It's distracting you, and I know it'd distract me too if I had a laptop in class with me. It's hard for me to work when we have laptops to type things and research projects. I think you should leave it home, or just not open it. And you have to just push through and try your hardest to focus and connect. Don't think about it, it's just something you have to do to get through the majority of school.
Another thing you just have to do. As bullshit as it is. Maybe you should make a schedule for yourself. I mean, seriously. Just sit down and think of a time to do homework, a time to study and a time for free-time. And follow that schedule. Hell, tape it to your laptop. Just follow through, make sure you're comfortable when you're studying or doing homework and maybe listen to music but I think it'd help to organize a time to do it. Just try it for me? Even for a day? Just follow a schedule you made for yourself and include everything in it. When you'll wake up, shower, food, classes, studying, free-time, homework. It'll be a step to a plan and the more organized you are, the less you really have to think about things and chose what you're going to do. Because between schoolwork and the Internet, naturally you'll probably pick Internet. And maybe try to set up a time to talk to your teachers, seriously, about your work.

That worries me. You need to be eating. Your roommate can't order a pizza or something every once and a while? Maybe you should go talk to someone about that, the counselor or something. I'm sure they could help you get a job or sign you up for something that could help provide food. And I'm sorry about the intervention. That must've been hell. And I think counseling might help with that too, the negative problem. If you seriously can't eat, then drink something when you feel that way. But try to eat when you can, even if you don't feel like it and you know you need food. Honestly, you need to be healthy. And the healthier you are, the more natural that'll become to you and it might get a little easier to eat, even when you're not feeling good. You need to eat whenever you can.

Once again. I don't want you to think so much. Some people do have trouble expressing themselves. But emotion is almost like impulse. When you feel emotion, act on it. Don't take the time to figure out what it is, just act on it. If you feel like crying, cry. If you feel angry, bust a cap. I don't know. But you have to exercise your emotions. If you're having trouble expressing yourself, I can't just tell you to act on it, can I? Try doing something that makes you feel. Even if it's just watching a sad movie, with characters you can somewhat relate to. Or even a funny one. Or reading a sad book, and allow yourself to feel for the characters, get wrapped up in it. Or write something yourself. One thing I end up telling people a lot is that I truly believe the majority of sadness is anger and frustration. Think about the things in your life that you're angry about, and if it helps, just go off about it. You can write something like this, and release it. You don't have to show anyone or tell anyone about it. But I think if you sat down and wrote about something you're seriously pissed about, something you can't forgive, something eating away at you that resurfaces from time to time, you'll probably end up crying. And I mean if you seriously put yourself into what you're typing or venting about. And I think if you had a nice, good, long cry and vent about EVERYTHING you'd feel so much better. The same for laughter. If you see something funny, even if you think it's stupid or you don't want to laugh, laugh. A good laugh can be just as relieving as a good cry. Do things that make you feel joy. Even the tiniest bit. Call someone up, just to talk and laugh, webcam with someone who makes you smile, draw silly pictures on MSN's handwriting thingy. Anything. Just release something. The more your exercise your emotions, the easier it'll be to access them and identify what you're feeling.

Sweetie, you have to get a job. You can't just float through life. You're reminding me of a friend, who refused to get a job for the longest time simply out of laziness and thinking he'd hate every minute of it. Well, he's got a job because I made his ass get one. And he actually comes home from work, calls me, and tells me what a great day he's had. You should start looking for a job, even one as similar as you can find to your old one. But you need a job. With a job comes money, and the more money you have the more you'll eat and ultimately the better you're going to feel about yourself. It might even motivate you more. Or the people you work with might inspire you to try a bit harder in school and such. I think it would be good for you. And you need a car. So you can go out and do something. I want you to go job hunting before I do it for you and just start sending you random links of jobs I think might be good for you around there. And I WILL do it. =P And the sleepiness thing. I think that's depression. You need to get out and get some fresh air and just live life. I'm glad about you being saved. Everyone's religious devotion differ. I think you might feel closer with it if you did go to a couple Bible studies. And I think you'd feel better. As for the girl part, right now it would be best to focus on yourself. Love yourself before you love someone else.

That's where thinking too much comes in. Stop thinking so much. You have to, it's going to eat you alive. If you feel something, don't second guess it, just feel it. And if you don't know how you feel, talk to someone. Tell them what happened, and that you don't know how you feel. And I'm sure they'll help you figure it out. The world and life isn't designed for people to float through it alone. And you're not alone. Just reach out to people more, don't think about it, just do it. If you think about it, you'll stop yourself from doing it.

It matters to you, otherwise you wouldn't have posted this and it wouldn't bother you in the least. Try not to indulge in smoking and drinking and instead force yourself to get up and do something productive. Try to focus on just getting your life together, doing positive things, figuring out your emotions, working more on school things. I know how it feels to be unmotivated. Just look for reasons. Look at what you want in your life. Money, a car, to get away, and think about the steps you need to get there. And if you need anyone, even if you don't feel like talking about it, I'm here for you. And if you need to just vent, maybe like I said before it would help for you to just write a crapload in a Word document. Even just to keep it for yourself. I luff you, Ramen-kun. <3

You're sweet. Don't worry about it though. <3

XDDD If I end up doing it, I'll send you a picture. It was. I danced too. My dog was like, "Wtf?" Tilting his head. XDD

Oh wow. What for? Just problems with people. I'm getting better now though.

Oh, it's all I've ever hoped for. <3

I do. Very interesting.

I would feel very uncomfortable.

Please do. <3

NO, EVERYTHING IS A LIIIIEE.

I love you. c:​

I think that if it's really happening, it's too late to do anything about it.​

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I'll mess up, and it'll look weird. D: I did it. XDD

I feel like doing that now. << Lawl. *Looks up lyrics*

Um. No. B| I would fail and it would end up looking like a fish or something. ;A; That's why it's ah-mah-zin'.

I shou--oh. I don't have a bagel. << It's still cracking me up. XDD

;_; I don't want another sandwich...I want a bagel. Dx XD Umm. I'll look up the Yatta song.