I WOULD NEVER THINK SUCH A THING!!! Im sorry but ive put 3 years into thi baby ive been there sence the day she was born. sure she's a stubborn spoiled brat but i love her very much and wouldnt dare give her up for the world! Sadly im way to young to move out. although i have been considering running away =/ Again, I have to ask how old you are and about your status with the guardianship of the child. Whether you do own guardianship or not, I can possibly give you some more suggestions, but one thing is to try to just get yourself out of that environment if you can't ignore it. If you seriously cannot afford therapy, if you really are seriously negative on things, admit yourself to the hospital. Call the suicide prevention hot line and perhaps they can offer you some advice in your local area on where to go to. I hope any of this helps. Maybe your friends have 'turned' on you because you aren't the same person they knew since you take things right now so very seriously. When we are depressed badly, we aren't thinking about other people and their feelings as much as our own, to include how we feel others feel about us. Often when depressed, we're actually -wrong- about how others feel about us too, so keep that in mind. Your friends just may be confused and not get why you are withdrawing or why you don't get out more etc. Try reaching out to your friends and see if perhaps any would want to go do something with you sometime. Try doing something where you don't just end up talking about your life situation and get out and have some fun, so it's not your focus. Focus on other things around you to bring you sensations of other emotions besides the misery you feel. You have every reason to live and do things that can make you happy. Have some pride in it because you definitely don't have to take care of this child and you definitely don't have to stay with this grandmother either, who is not well and who would actually miss you if you left. With her attitude, I'm about sure that she's probably frightened off other people who would be around more. Don't distance yourself from life. Try taking the baby out and going for walks or to stores or something fun and relaxing. Maybe go to a park even, and try if you can to get a hold of a friend or two to go do something positive. Keep your head up and I hope things get better for you soon.[/QUOTE] Your advise really put me into alot of thinking... Sadly im under 18 im very young but i am a teen. I will do as you say and see if i can call those hotlines. I have been trying very hard to break out of this deprision but it is very hard when i have so much pressure on me. I love the baby so much. people ask me about her i consider her my DAUGHTER. I cant have her signed over in my name. I hope thi doesnt sound wrong but i rather not have her in my name. I cannot legaly support her. I have no money and i fear that if I take her I might hurt her. She has gotten to the point where its getting harder. sadly there is nothing i can do. I kno this may sound wrong but im using my grandmother and the childs parents. they give her money they but her things atleast. I just use them to take care of her. I will do what i can to get help. I took your advice to heart and i am able to go out in the next hour. I thank you so very much.
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I hope this doesnt come across me as whining. If it does im sorry My life isnt the best at all. Im raising a baby that isnt even mine ive been taking care of her for 3 years. Ever sence she was born her parents didnt want her so hence why im raising her...She lives with my grandmother who is really nuts. I mean it she has mental problems. So she treats me like crap. Tells me everything i do wrong. To her I cant even wash the dishes right. Long story short because of her im realy stress and fell into a deep depression. I cant afford to go to tharapy... Even if I help pay my family doesnt want to deal with it. I dont sleep anymore no matter how hard I try. Im so tired but i refuse to take pills due to past expraicne that hurt me. I cut all the time and attempts to kill myself. Ive cut my throat but never seem to get it deep enough. I feel like no one care about me here where i live. For some reason people reject me. Im EXTREAMLY shy... if a girl looks at me they istantly hate me... My real life friends turned on me. So being lonely makes everything worse. I'm just about ready to kill myself. Ive made plans on how to do it where to do it.... I know people will tell me to talk to family about it but i mean it no one will listen. I see no point in liveing. Please help...
When will the sire be shut down? ><
tis fine tis fine :3 Awsome! savor every moment you can XD
Jaden Im trying to keep it together with you. You ALWAYS harrass me and spam at me!! your a good friend yes but sometimes i need to be alone from...
me sowwie :cryinganime:
hmmm i is not sure what to play ::L: T_T hmmmmm...... let me think XD
XD Eh not to well @_@ getting by with life. i got this pack of 52 gel pens and a note book. Ivebeen onlove with the pens for some reason XD...
:3 Lol really? thats awsome XD Tis very nice to meet you RvR
but you taste good T_T
yaaa *takes a taste* YUMMY X3
Nice to meet you too *puts out hand* My name is rachel. call me what ever you like ^^
Can I have a taste? XD
Alright. Thanks again <3 hope we can be friends
I'm sorry for what I asked you...I know it must have sadden you deeply... I'm very sorry. I hope your not upset with me. If there is anyway I can...
O_o dont eat yourself alive!!!!
You would have been 20.... I read of what happened....And it saddens me and im crying. You where loved by so many people. Your family your...
NUUUUUU *shakes*
jooooooooe *tackles*
