thank you for trying to help <3
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I should do that thanks. I would love to see what she would do. I get tired of her empty threats. Thank you <3 Cherish my broken heart? I never thought of it that way... So bascly chershing it turns into somthing good correct? I like that idea. And I know about the rules. I've been learning them and seeing what I could do to put them in my favor if I end up with this guy and have them ready if I ever end up with another guy. I would run away for a night though I have no were to stay. At this point though I really think they wont care of how long I am gone. Somtimes I get the feelings they dont even want me around. They constantly ignore me no matter what. I get where you are coming from with that. I will call her out on it next time when she does it again. I can cut all ties with her but I cant cut ties with my ex. I'm not the type to cut out somone I love forever. It will take me some time. I worry about him alot. Its how I am. Once I care about somone it stays. Even though he hurt me like hell I still worry about him. I will try to cut ties with him. It has been a while sence we talked so I guess that will be my start. I know you may see it as stupid and if you do I do agree cause people do ask me why do I still care even though he hurt me. Its how I am. I go by "forgive and forget" though the forgiveing porcess takes a long time. I mean isnt better to care than dwell on it? I guess you're right. But somtimes I think they are right mostly because I really feel like I am. I want to do better so in their eyes. But I guess thats impossoble. But how do I go about stoping the thoughts of thinking I am trash? Trust me I have no intenstion in rushing into things. No way. And I will take it slow. Its always better to get to know them as best as you can right? I'm so sorry that has happened to you. Time heals all wounds I do hope things get better. And I will start trying to laugh it off. It's just hard to ignore because it's my own parents y'know? Parents shouldnt do that right? We treats our parents with respect as they treat their kids with repsect. Isnt it how its supose to go? or somthing along those lines? I will do that. Though how can I tell myself I'm amazing when I see so many things wrong with me? Im sorry I'm asking so many things I just want to understand. Thats a fantastic idea <3 Not sappy at all. It was very helpful <3 I guess you're right. And at this point in time education is needed. And I already run away emotionly. As you said it isnt the best but right now it's all I got to keep myself sane enough to get through everyday. But how could I be a threat?(sorry with stuff like this im stupid) I mean there is no way I would even try to get him back. Why would she see me as superior? I mean I see it as this. She is better than me cause she was able to take him away from me. She is more mentaly sane than I am and im just a flat out terrble and probely annoying person... I will catch her out on it. And I have told her what he is and he may do it to her but all she said was "Well that was just for you because you where so terrlbe. He chose me cause natrually I'm much better for him".... Sometimes I wonder if she is right. I know all of that I really do. No relationship lasts for ever. It will have problems we will get hurt and as you said it may not even end. But at this point in time I am scared. I loved my ex. And what he did ofcourse left a huge scar. What I am afraid of is that if I do get into a relationship with this guy or any guy at that they will leave me for the reason my ex did. Wich I am assuming is cause I think I am a terrble person and a nusence. I guess you are right. And again I know I cant base my opinions of all realationships cause of what one guy did. Like I said befor I am just scared.
hi kitty .
