Speaking of free time, I'll be on later tomorrow...Probably around 6 or 6:30 my time, if I'm correct. I'll have to check on that. xD
Sora looked at Kairi, thinking. He understood the point she was trying to get across, and at the same time, he didn't see a solution to their problem. He didn't think he could possibly stop caring for people, and he didn't want to. But...couldn't there somehow be a balance? Could he take care of himself and still love others the same as he always had?
Maybe some afternoon when I'm free and not RPing, then I can type out everything I have in mind. ;3 And you can do the same if I'm not on, or if...
Sora looked up again, feeling confused. "Hm?" he hummed, his bright blue eyes on Kairi once again. He didn't understand...hadn't she just been telling him that he needed to make a change?
I don't know. xD Maybe this next thing with the prince will...I am excited to do that. x3
But....No, Sora couldn't accept that every act of kindness he ever performed was a waste. If that were true, then his life would have been a complete lie. He always strived to please others before taking care of himself, and that was his problem. Sometimes, he just didn't understand what people wanted out of him. But he did understand what Kairi wanted. And he would do his best to fulfill her wishes.
Not Alone- Linkin Park
I didn't. xD But it's totally awesome it did, that was the best.
Sora lowered his head again, humming to show he had heard Kairi's words. He didn't have much to say anymore, though. All he could think about now was how much he messed things up...In his attempt to make things better, at that. The irony didn't sit well with him, and for a moment, he wondered if all the kindness he had ever shown was for nothing.
The Smith and Roxas plot in general was just...INCREDIBLE. Our best work ever. x3
Sora finally looked up, and when he did, there was a pained expression on his face. He didn't want to think about him hurting Kairi; everything he did was to try and make her happy. But hearing her talk like this...it made him realize that he had failed at that goal. Big time.
We sure were. xD You thinking of anything specific? x3
Sora nodded wordlessly. "I'll try," he said softly. He knew that old habits would die hard, but now, each time he looked at Kairi, he would be reminded of this painful lesson. He wasn't sure if that was a good thing or a bad thing, but that's how it was now. He kept his head lowered, still feeling ashamed for his screw-ups.
Speaking A Dead Language- Joy Williams
Now I want to go bowling. xD
"...Sorry," Sora said again, keeping his eyes shut and head lowered. He had really messed up with this...He wasn't proud to admit that even to himself, let alone Kairi, who he tried to never burden. But that was exactly what he had done, so he had a right to feel ashamed.
That's good. =D
Sora lowered his head, his eyes closing in shame. "Yes," he confessed softly. He hadn't meant to cause any damage...He hoped Kairi knew that. He had only been trying to do what he thought was best, but he had been wrong. It wasn't easy to admit that, but he had made a great error in his thinking if he thought pushing off his own health would help those around him.
I can sympathize with that; I stink at bowling. xDD
Sora saw Kairi out of the corner of his eye, but then he looked back down, formulating another thought. He exhaled silently and lowered the icepack, his arm already tired from holding it there. "Earlier," he started softly. "....You asked me how it would be different if you were acting the way I have been." He finally looked over at Kairi, a pained expression on his face. "There's no difference," he confessed softly, the realization hitting him hard. If he had been hurt by the mere idea of that happening, he couldn't imagine how much pain he had put Kairi through lately.
