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Oh, god, how could I have not noticed that. I'm super sorry. • n •

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Your shop request is finished ( finally ) !

Your shop requests are finished ( finally ) !

Orders complete ( finally ) :​

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NutHeadBros: Your Cove roleplaying banners ( you will have to upload them yourself ).
The Hero of Time: Your roleplaying banners ( you will have to upload them yourself ).

master of keyblades: Your signature. I'm sorry you missed the Halloween set because of me. You may still use it if you'd like, or can request a new one for my failure.

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IF THERE ARE ANY CHANGES ANYONE NEEDS MADE, PM ME, AND I WILL DO SOMETHING.​

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So, I already notified you about this before, but Savages turned out to be a serious killed and it is killing me.

I don't sing well enough to do that many parts, so I'm just going to flat out change my song.

I can guarantee you that the song will either be Everything You Ever from Dr. Horrible's Sing-a-Long Blog or Cantarella by KAITO ( a Vocaloid song ). I have found high-quality instrumentals for the both of them, so I'm going to record both and see which one sounds better. I'm really leaning towards Cantarella, so if you absolutely NEED to change the OP for my new song, then change it to that.

In the meantime, I'm going to try and not totally SUCK ASS AT SINGING.

I wrote this at the beginning of all the Anniversary contests, but I was hesitant to post it for reasons better left unsaid.​

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This is very serious for me, please take it seriously.​

Spoiler: Anniversary Writing

“It's just a game.”

If you want to get on my bad side, you will say something like this to me. Nothing is ever “just a book/movie/game/story” because you have immersed yourself within its world, so much so that it has almost become a part of you. In the end, your mind has interacted with the story, the characters, the world. You have thought of all these things, you have imagined them, so it is never just a story.

About six years ago, when I was twelve, my dad and I were at a GameStop, and this was when he still bought games for our PS2, and he was the only one who played it. While he was looking for something to buy, I saw the Kingdom Hearts II game, and picked up; I told my dad that I had been "meaning to play it", when I had seen the first Kingdom Hearts just a few years before.

During this time, I had only played games that were for the GameCube, the Nintendo 64, and my GameBoy Color. To be honest, I was scared of playing the PS2 because of the types of games my dad played, which were games like Call of Duty, Medal of Honor, Half-Life, Devil May Cry, and others similar. I hadn't thought that I could play any games on the PS2 because they might have been too hard for me.

My freshman year of high school, it was around Christmas time, I went to GameStop again (don't misunderstand, I took many, many visits to GameStop in between the times). It was decided that I should stop being such a wimp about playing the PS2, and so I grabbed the first Kingdom Hearts.

Like usual, when I came home, I immediately started playing the game; the beginning mesmerized me and the opening sequence graphics were amazing – I had, very silly of me, I might add, thought that the rest of the game would look like that, but to my surprise and slight disappointment, it didn't. Still, it looked great; however, the part where Selphie, Tidus, and Wakka ask you the questions freaked me out a little, I almost stopping playing it. Also, I think I had a bit of trouble fighting the first Darkside, but it ended up being easy enough.

Just a few days after I had gotten the game, I beat it; It was a Saturday after Christmas, and I cried when Riku got stuck behind the Door to Darkness. I usually cry at the end of video games (not so much anymore), so I digress.

After that, I had gone on to play the rest of the series in this order: Kingdom Hearts II, Re:Chain of Memories, 358/2 Days, Kingdom Hearts II, Re:Chain of Memories, Birth By Sleep, Kingdom Hearts II, Re:Coded, Birth By Sleep, and then Dream Drop Distance. If you can't tell, I had . . . issues with Kingdom Hearts II and Re:Chain of Memories. Goddamned cards.

To me, Kingdom Hearts is more than just a story, just a game, it's a big part of my life for a few reasons. There was a time when things were bad in my life and I had more problems than your average adult or teenager. I grew a sort of obsession, addiction to Kingdom Hearts, and it was more than just wanting memorabilia of it, having the plushies and figures and all that goes with that, it was wanting to be in the world, actually interact with the characters. Be a part of the cast.

To someone outside of my mind, outside of my world, to anyone who isn't me, this sounds normal, but it was more than just wanting into that world, it was wanting it so badly that I was willing to die for it.

When I had talked to . . . professionals about this, they said it was due to all the events that had taken place in my life, that I wanted it as an escape, and I think that was true enough, but I was in denial about it. A fantasy world where it was good versus evil with a key that was also a sword sounded like a much better deal than my life.

This obsession hadn't grown until I was about fourteen or fifteen. I had just gotten out of a rehabilitation/psychiatric asylum in which I was in for some things I'd rather not mention here, and life after I left hadn't gotten much better than what it was before. My parents didn't get along, my mother was stressed due to my sister not behaving, my family was all in an uproar about things that had happened out of the country, and I had school to worry about, and about what all of my school mates would think of me.

The real world just wasn't my bag. I didn't like it, didn't want it, not a single part of it. I wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. It wasn't like Kingdom Hearts could have me do that, but the universe of it was so imaginative, intricate, things would move in a direction I liked, it was the first thing I turned to. It just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. This is all to say that it could have been anything else, for you see, I liked Naruto at the time and some other things, so it could not have just been Kingdom Hearts.

It had been a few years, and I had still had issues with it into my junior year of high school.

Someone who isn't me might think that it's of a humorous nature that Kingdom Hearts has affected me like this. There were times when I would think of it, and it would make me cry; I would run to my room, slam my door and collapse on the floor, crying so hard, wishing that I wasn't obsessed. It hurt a lot. I don't know what I had been waiting for, I wanted someone to tell me something, anything that would help me. I have no idea what it was, but I knew that if they told me, if someone, anyone told me what I was waiting to hear, everything would be fine. I would be okay again.

Suffice to say, it never came.

Eventually, it stopped. One day, I just wasn't thinking about it, I had a mote of dust fly across my vision and it was as if the past years of my life with the obsession melted away. It was after that I realized that I had been bombarded with other things that were more important that I just couldn't keep up with both of them, so I just subconsciously choose which issue was more important.

I love Kingdom Hearts now, and am able to enjoy it thoroughly without having to worry about my mind reeling on the thoughts of being in the universe of aforementioned game. It seems that, from the previous narrative, nothing good has come out of the series and games for me, but that's not true in the slightest; without Kingdom Hearts, and maybe even the obsession, I would have never joined KH-Vids, I would have never met people who would become my friends today, probably never would have felt that I belonged somewhere.

Kingdom Hearts is more than just a game, really, I pretty much owe my life to it.

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[ ☺ ] Start from last save

[☺] Go back for Saxima and then escape through the hole.

DOES NO ONE KNOW HOW BAD I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW.

That's right, I am. ♥

[☺] Start from last save

I just feel so . . . bad. • n •

[ ☺] Use the shards of glass as a mirror.

Fuck you, Ben. • n •

So . . . I'll be honest; I've been wanting to post, but . . . I was kinda waiting for Krowley to post first, soooooo. Uhm.

This is awkward for me.

This thread makes me happy. For reasons that no one would think of.

[☺] Ask Krowley.

Looks like we're going to ask every motherfucker under the gahdamned roof before we move on because HALLOWEEN ISN'T TOMORROW.

GS, my black running man. ♥

Dr Pepper or Dr. Pepper?​

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So, I heard you're a magical negro; what sort of magic?​

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Cherries or strawberries?​

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Your oldest KHV friend?​

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The member you would like to lovingly strangle the most?​

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. . . My voice isn't 'cute'.​

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Backfeed?​

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Was it . . . really an English accent? Are you sure it wasn't Texan?​

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Im - im - im - im - impressions?​

Dear lord, Jayn, dear, you're so brave for this, I think I might cry of either a broken heart or admiration.

［☺］Ask someone else. [1]