Sora opened his eyes and looked over the empty battlefield, eyebrows still furrowed. "I was enraged at how they manipulated me," he said quietly. "...But I was even angrier that I allowed them to do it. How could I have fallen into their hand so easily?" He knew that it wasn't stupidity that led him to almost being their puppet, but ignorance. Often times he was ignorant of reality, and the Organization had taken advantage of that.
Which talk was that, exactly? xD I can't remember at the moment. Something between Sora and Roxas would be interesting. x3 You think it would...
Sora furrowed his browns and lowered his hands to his sides, both of them being clenched into fists. Leon had asked him the same question earlier, and that time, he had refused to answer. It was still painful to think about, but this time Sora decided that he needed a response. "I was angry," he stated softly. "Mostly at what the Organization did to me. And Namine, too." He paused for a moment, having trouble saying the last thing that he had been angry about.
Yuppers. xD So, I'm just curious, do you have anything specific in mind for Roxas? I don't know why, but it feels like you're leading up to...
Sora shut his eyes once more, slightly aware of the breeze that ran over his skin. He hardly noticed it, too wrapped up in his own thoughts and trying to keep his exhaustion at bay. It did feel good to say what he was feeling, and he was comforted that his best friend now knew what was bothering him, but that didn't take away the problem.
I can think of somebody in my life. xD But she never had cable, so she has an excuse.
Sora nodded in agreement, opening his eyes partway as he gazed downward. "...That's what scares me," he confessed. It felt good to say what was troubling him so deeply, so he continued. "With Castle Oblivion, it was all about bringing up old memories and old emotions. No matter how hard I try now, I can't suppress them or get rid of them. It's awful to feel completely out of control like this."
Why- Rascal Flatts
Yay us! xD That just reminded me of "The Suite Life of Zack and Cody." Lol you ever see that show? With London always saying "Yay me!" ;P
"...But at the same time, you feel like you can't show any emotion because it only gets in the way," Sora said, acting as if his last sentence was phrased as a statement. His anger had controlled him on the battlefield earlier, and though it had saved his life, he didn't like the idea that his emotions could influence him so much. He was actually afraid of that, very much so, because emotions clouded a person's senses and often put them in danger.
Maybe I am tired after all. xD Oh well, I don't feel like sleeping.
Sora nodded faintly and shut his eyes, a breath leaving him in tiredness. He wasn't only tired physically, but he was also mentally exhausted. But he couldn't stay in the state he was in now, or he would lose his sanity. That was how he felt as he tried to formulate a way to say his feelings to Riku. "You ever feel so frustrated with something you wanna scream?" he asked randomly, keeping his eyes shut and his head lowered. He didn't need to see Riku to know that he was listening.
=) ...I was about to say 1:11, make a wish, but then I realized we're in different time zones AND the correct time to make a wish is 11:11. xD
Sora snorted softly, crossing his arms across his chest. "No," he said, eyebrows furrowed. "I wish it was something that I could put into words that easily, but it's not." Though the truth had somehow managed to escape him lately, he knew that one day he would find it again. What was bothering him most was he himself, and how his personality had changed since Castle Oblivion.
Hi there! =) Just a heads up; I could randomly lose power. =/ It happened a little while ago for no reason, but it came back within a few...
Sora shook his head slightly, looking down as he spoke. "How are you supposed to live your life like that?" he asked, not sure if it was a rhetorical question or one that he wanted answered. "How can you live your life when the truth is constantly changing?" Just over a week ago, he had never thought of Castle Oblivion. And then during his visit to the Castle, he discovered that he gained only lies from that place. He knew one bit of truth: The Organization was a sick, manipulative group, and he was glad that they were vanquished forever. That was one thing he knew for sure.
Buh-bye! =)
Sora nodded faintly, lifting his gaze as he looked at the emptiness in front of him. "It's funny how things can appear to clear at one moment and then next thing you know, you realize you don't know a thing," he said aloud, the words leaving him without thought. Though it may have seemed like he was referring to Castle Oblivion, he was really thinking about what had happened on the battlefield earlier that day. In the middle of the battle, he had caught onto what Leon was trying to teach him, but then the concept lost meaning to him, as if his revelation hadn't really happened.
I think I can stay awake. =) I'm not tired at all for some reason. Have a nice time with your boyfriend!
Sora nodded slightly, still keeping his gaze downward. He was glad Riku seemed to forgive him for that; he really hadn't been himself. He still wasn't the normal, cheerful Sora, but at least he wasn't lashing out at his friends anymore. "Sorry about all of that," he said softly. He had apologized before, but he felt the need to say it again, for saying it only once didn't sufficiently show how regretful he felt.
