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im just not sure anymore, normally i wouldnt post this but its getting bad.
im not sure if im him or if he is me. im not really sure where to begin with my problem so ill start from the beggining.
at the beggining of summer i suffered from a major injury to my eye and i had to be put on a lot of medicine. for a while i was fine and once my meds ended strange things began to happen, i started hearing voices in my head all the time when no one was there, i would wake up sometimes in the middle of the night and be in different places, destruction always was close by. at first i thought it was lack of sleep and that when i did sleep it was just sleepwalking. but then the voice started to call itself by name, it called itself V. He didnt talk to me much at first but then it came more and more and eventually he carried out complete convos with me. i thought i was crazy and for a while i didnt tell anyone. once i did tell some one he told me that if i said anything more he would hurt me and everyone around me. soon i told more people as i was starting to worry, but then i started to wake up in the middle of the night and i wasnt able to conrtol my body, it was still moving and breaking things all through out the house I could see everything but i couldnt do anything to stop my body. When i told my parents what was happening they thought it was just a cry for attention and ignored it, but then it began to happen more frequent my night rampages. so i talked to them and they took me to see a docter and they put me on pills that were supposed to help me. of course they didnt because all docters are just ****ing crackpots. so around a week or two ago V never shut up he told me what to do, i was scared to sleep because he had complete control. and normally i would just let all of this fester but lately even when im awake he has been taking control forcefully, its not major but every now and then i lose control to parts of myself a finger or toe here or there, and now im not sure if he is me or if im him or if he exsists and i never did and stuff way too deep for me to handle. ive told people the meds arent working but no one believes me. so now im really depressed and he tells me to kill myself he tells me to let him have his turn and that i should just go to sleep forever. im worried, i mean really worried, im starting to listen to him more and more im just not sure how long im going to be able to hold on.

sorry to bother i just need this fixed and i mean now i dont want to hear the voices anymore.