My motives are to never give up no matter what obstacle is in my way and to percervere.
I posted and now I'm going to wait as well.
Cloud ignored Roxas's ranting and he wasn't surprised by his reaction either. Ignoring the whole thing, he watched Roxas give his thoughts bluntly without a care in the world. Demyx sighed rubbing his temples not believing what he was hearing. Boy Roxas could talk and almost come on the verge of yelling. The guy was so intense and he was mad at the wrong person. "Roxas, the only reason I showed my weapon to you is because that is what anyone of us in the organization would have to do against you a traitor. I didn't hurt you with it did I? No I let you get away. I couldn't hurt you, but I have to remain loyal for my survival is on the line as well, but you forgot that didn't you? You're supposed to have feelings aren't you Roxas?" He paused taking a breath before speaking the truth. "And like I explained to you before, I didn't grab you by your arm to be mean or control you in anyway. I was concerned about you getting hurt. Is that so wrong and don't you ever compare me to Larxene. I'm nothing like her in fact we're completly the opposite. What a horrible thing to say!" Demyx yelled at the top of his lungs turning away from him and shaking his head not believing what he just heard. He didn't deserve any of this treatment. He couldn't help the way he was and Roxas seriously did have a problem with him for being annoying. He couldn't change that. It was part of his personaility and others had to accept that.
Most of the times I love life and I'm greaful to be alive, but then I live with something I shouldn't even have and should have been prevented so it makes me think of having to live with this while others just don't understand or care to. No one knows what it is like to have heavy pressure on your chest at all times, and have episodes of shortness of breath along with sharp pains and then having to go through the emotional roller coaster of PTSD. It really drains me and makes me bitter towards those that tell me to move on. Like Hell if I should. Why don't you trade places with me and see how you like it? See how you can stand it and not be bitter> It's hard when you're constantly living with it people and that's why I wish there were others who would be able to relate. At times I feel I am misunderstood on this forum, by some people who do not like how I play a certain character in a rpg, who thought I was causing trouble and for those who even talk behind my back and judge me by how they want to, but that's their problem. I can't please everyone so it's not worth getting private messages that point out some rant or critisim towards what I do. I don't need more drama, for my whole life is that right now dealing with something that will go to trial and be up against the f****** who did this to me. *sighs* I'm done with it and that's why I have taken the advice to ignore what irrrates me and save my energy for where I will need it.
Well if it came down to it, I would shoot to wound in the foot for I wouldn't want to be charged for killing another person even if it was in defense. Then get the hell away from that person before he or she could come after me and tell someone I could trust.
I like them both for I have to be in that kind of mood, but I do love maple sausage or bacon. If I had to choose I would say bacon for I like anything crunchy.
I don't care about them. When I see them I just delete them. I don't have the time to spend with any of that when I could be doing something else instead. It's simply a huge waste of time.
I was in my mother's arms or should I say the doctor's arms in a hospital around 12:40 am in the morning and I was supposed to be born April 19th instead of the 29th. I was way overdue.
The scariest thing I have ever done was being on fire watch during my job in the dark of night being surrounded by flames with no way of being able to get out of there due to being in the outskirts from any civilization. I still suffer from this to this very day. *shudders* O_O Another one of the worst things was being conscience instead of being under anthesia of having my left wrist slit open with a blade and have the doctor thread a line through my artery for a test that had to be done due to a health condition I have and after that happened, forced to be hooked up to all kinds of wires that monitor my breathing and pulpations of my heart while blood being drawn and excerising on a stationary bike. Man I will never forget that painful experience. I wanted to seriously die at that moment. It was like being tortured. T_T
No I don't find this logic stupid. I feel as long as you tried your best and asked on how you can improve then that's all you can do. Eventually the C's would turn to B's or A's in due time. Now giving up or not caring at all would result in D's or F's which shows lack of commitment or efftot, but C's are not bad at all. Just keep doing your best.
Oh you just read my mind on this one. 1. The ability to fly for I would love to soar over anything and everyone and explore the wide world we all live in. Plus I wouldn't have to worry about traffic. LOL 2. The ability to heal would be so needed in the world for I would be able to prevent so many from dying and heal our soliders over seas and help those in need who are sick and injured. 3. The power to see the dead. It would be interesting to communicate with them and help them on their journey. This all adds up to being an angel so I believe that is what I would be. ^_^
I'll be the second to answer this. I believe what you get in life you need to work for it and not have everything given to you for it only makes you lazy and not not appreciate anything or anyone. People who are like this come to expect this and thus become self consumed monsters wanting anything and everything giving in to gluttony. Now I have always wanted to have the ability to fly such as grow wings or have a magical ability to, but I would never I repeat never sell my soul for it. People who do make bargains with Satan are only damning themselves for damnation for enternity and just for a pleasureable moment that would exhaust in time for that individual would regret it forever. Is it worth it to have what you really wanted just be stuck in enternal agony forever? I don't think so. Once again this is my opinion and belief and I stand by it.
Demyx was now rolling on his new bed and was starring up at the ceiling. "Yeah isn't it great?" He grined from ear to ear being completly upside down until he rolled over on the other side. Cloud was spinning the key card in his hand as he waited for the elevator to take him to the ninth floor. "I say we get some rest Leon." He tapped his foot as the elevator seemed to be taking its time.
Now being up on his feet and with the light striking his features, he stretched his arms out in front of him and yawned once more. He was still tired, but he didn't want to sleep the day away.
Paying attention to what was mentioned by Xemnas, the melodious nocturne was surprised at what had transpired while he was playing his sitar and being off in his own world. Marluxia had engaged himself in combat with another nobody; a female one to be exact, but from a different clan or group. So there was more of their kind, that took upon the appearance of a human besides their own organization. What could this possibly mean? Was there a battle brewing underneath their noses and how much more did Marluxia or the others know? He leaned forward slightly to his left glancing at the gracful assassin who sat on one side of him, and Saix on the opposite. How strange this occurance was for Saix for he was no where to be seen either? Arching his eyebrow he thought of the possible reasons for the others not being on time? After pondering, he gave up and exhaled, bored as one could be. Blinking a few times to focus his eyes, he continued to glance around the room to entertain himself in some fashion. Directly across from him was Axel's spot whose seat was vacant. Other members were missing like Roxas as well as Larxene. He wondered where they were and also thought about the Superior taking his wrath upon the ones whom were missing this vital piece of information? Glad not to be them and with his legs spread apart in a relaxed posture, he tapped his fingers underneath the edges of the white marble throne as if humming a tune in his head as he awaited for anyone to speak or show up late. His eyelids were getting heavy, as he rubbed them with the side of his wrist and seconds later, Saix the Organization's second in command appeared in his seat and gave his apology to the master. "Typical," he thought as he wiggled his feet and turned his head from side to side to get any kinks out of his neck and hoping someone would at least provide entertainment for him in some way or method.
(OCC: All right he's yours. I'll go ahead and add you as Sora Dream Traveler. Thank you very much ^_^) Demyx glanced at Cloud once more after removing his hands from his face. He couldn't help it if he was sensitive and he couldn't understand why Roxas was being such a jerk to him? Everyone was different and Roxas had to give him the benefit of the doubt. "No way that would ever happen Cloud. I need to stand up to him once and for all. I need to find out what went wrong between the both of us and why he has so much hatred for me? What if he loses it and takes it out on Xion? It would not be good for her health if she really is pregant and then if something happened to her or the baby he would blame it all on me. I need to settle this. Last time before I ran off, I did see Aerith so you could come and talk to her if you want," he was glad that he had someone to talk to and it made him feel better. Cloud stood up and nodded. "Of course. I have to go with you anyway. You said you would come get me so this is a time as good as any." He observed Demyx create a portal for them. "Leon you can stay or come since the choice is up to you," he entered before the water wielder and arrived where he saw Roxas, Xion and Aerith together. He looked down upon the younger youth, the one who held bitter feelings towards his friend and just walked past him, just giving him a cold glance as he made his way to Aerith to speak to her. Demyx left the portal open for Leon to come if he wished to, and made his way onto the other side now sencing Aerith, Xion, and Roxas once more. Walking up to the key of destiny, his eyes glanced down at the one who was bitterly accusing Xion. "You know I don't like being treated like a disease Roxas? Would you like that if someone gave you the same treatment? What would your son or daughter think if they saw you behaving like a bully? I can't help that I'm sensitive all right? I was created that way or you can blame of who I was before. What is your problem with me anyway? Everyone else seems to not have a problem with me so why can't you go with the flow?" He was sick of getting his feelings hurt, having to explain himself for any wrong doings that happened and tired as hell of always being the victim yet there he was once again. It was frusterating, but for Xion's health it was worth finding out the truth about what Roxas's big deal was.
Bye I'll keep that in mind. *hugs back*
Slowly he starred into space not knowing what to think or say. He was the problem why Roxas hated him and for a stupid reason as well. Just because he was trying to help, the key of destiny took that as an offense to his own self and wanted nothing to do with the nocturne. This made Demyx very upset, but mostly confused on how Roxas someone who he had helped train in the organization for a few times now held a grudge over him. What had happened to their friendship? True it wasn't any where near as Axel's or Xion's or even Namine's, but at least the sitarist tried to make the attempt. Now, Roxas was the enemy to the organization, a traitor for leaving and Demyx didn't want any harm to come to him and it didn't know what he would do if he was ever ordered to go after him? Glancing at Cloud, he stood up getting defensive. "Why so you can not trust me either and treat me like a disease too? Why not Cloud? Leon says you shouldn't trust nobodies and I happen to be one. Someone as ruthless and cruel as the rest of the organization ought to just get your heart as well?" He blurted out for he clearly upset and not thinking of what he was saying. Cloud narrowed his eyes, disapproving of that comment, but he wouldn't take his own anger out on the scared nobody. Something had clearly happened and he wanted to know why? "Demyx if I didn't trust you I would have never signed the contract or agreed to any of the terms. You're not like the rest at all. You're different and I know you would never betray your friends so will you just tell me what is going on?" Demyx sniffed and coughed a few times trying to compose himself. "I'm sorry I went off on you like that. It's just that Xion could be pregant and she agreed to me being an uncle to the baby and I was going to ask Aerith if it was all right with her and Roxas overheard and gave Xion a cold look for telling me. I mean why would he get mad at her for telling me? I feel like I'm not wanted at all." He covered his face with his hands and began to weep into them. Cloud nodded taking the whole bit in and was surprised to hear that Xion could be pregant. "I wonder how Aerith feels about all of this and I assume Roxas would be the father?" He asked Leon and paused at seeing his friend sobbing. "Don't cry. Roxas is just confused and upset himself and took it out on the wrong individual. It would be best to only avoid him. Let him come to you."
"Well we can't have that can we?" He tried to make her smile. He would take good care of her so Larxene wouldn't hurt her again.
Demyx waited for Aerith's answer thinking it would be a yes for if Xion didn't have any problems with him, then Aerith might of thought the same. His smile faded when he saw Roxas and how upset he was at Xion. Putting two in two together, he lowered his head feeling defeated that Roxas was mad at her and it must of been what he overheard. Leaving Aerith, he walked away from her. "I'm sorry," he said to her. Glancing at Axel, he walked towards him, his head hung low. "I can tell Roxas doesn't want me here so I'll leave you with him and Xion and Aerith. I'm sorry if I did anything to upset him. Next time I'll mind my own business and not bother you or him again since I feel like I'm clearly not wanted anymore especially by him," he felt tears coming to his eyes and darted away off in a flash into a portal he conjured up at the last moment. He felt like he was a disease to Roxas and didn't want anyone to see him clearly upset and on the verge of falling apart. Not knowing where to go as he ran through the Corridor of Darkness he knew the one of the last individuals would be Larxene for she would laugh in his face if she saw him in the way he was now, tears running down his eyes, and his cheeks all flustered. Cloud saw a portal emerge suddendly before he could say anything else to Leon, out came an extremely dishearted nobody who was wearing his feelings on his sleeve. He was clearly bothered about something. Cloud walked over to his friend and asked him to sit down. "What's the matter?"
