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because they are sweet when they arent being dumb ****s. two of them are actually dating each other and i feel so bad for the guy because he really likes her a lot and she is just "trying it out" because she doesnt actually think she likes him but is trying it anyways. its just one of those things where they dont intentionally make me feel bad but they bring up their relationship every five seconds.
it also reallllyyy pisses me off when i tell people ive had one bf and they freak out and are like "OH why?!?!?!? you are so pretty why havent you had more? poor you" and im like ....

haha "**** you *****es ill do what i want!"
Im just waiting for one of them to get pregnant - oh wait one of them is. But yeah, Im trying to, they are just obnoxious little people who make me feel bad for not being in a relationship.

I just dont want to be in a relationship with someone unless i ACTUALLY have feelings for them and a lot of my friends in their relationships dont have that. I think its stupid personally to be in a relationship with someone you dont like. Yeah having the ex back in my life is kind of weird espcially after not talking to him for two months. Peer pressure is ******ed. I would just rather wait it out until i find a guy, everyone else seems to think differently

The thing is im not getting time. I finally get over the guy and start liking another one to have him start dating my best friend and then to have the other guy pop back into my life like nothing happened. and I feel like a god damn outcast in my group of friends because all of them have had bfs, multiple ones and they all expect me to get one soon and I dont particularly want one and i feel like a misfit because of it. i know ill find someone hopefully someday but i dont see the point of a high school relationship because i think its pointless. and it makes me sad to say that

Every relationship ive seen in high school crashes and burns. I had a bad one. My friend has had multiple bad ones, ive seen things happen that i thought seriously only happened on tv and my faith in guys has plummeted. Honestly im scared. Im trying to have fun but i dont know its hard.

haha i guess so.
guys in my life are just pathetic. Ive given up on relationships and i still find ways to get hurt. i had a bad first expirence in a relationship and i dont want to try it again. and then there is the whole thing with my friend being pregnant with her best friends ex boyfriend of three days agos baby. and im mad at just everyone for being so ****ing ******ed. the sad thing being its literally mad me sick, for the past week and a half ive been getting horrible headaches and stomach pains and there is nothing physically wrong with me to the doctor says its all in my head and im doing this to myself.

ha, if that was true i would have lots of love.
mad at you? noooo.

you are so mean to me.

i think i would end up killing myself.

youve made me want to go watch disney movies.
except i have none.
god damnit

you would. does it make you happy on the inside?

wazzup .

hey so we should talk on msn sometime cause we haven't really talked in a long time.

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Yes, exactly.

Only two. When have I ever lied to you before? And why would I be lying now?

You spelled my name wrong. And don't be scared, it's a very simple thing.

Hah :P Same old Vivi. Watcha been up to for the past 7 months?

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I'd be heavily disturbed if you forgot who I am. But I doubt that be the case.