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  1. T3F
    Hey hey!

    So I figured rather than posting individual poems on individual threads, I'll make a poetry thread! (Great idea, right?) :D

    I wrote this one yesterday, cnc is very welcome!
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    MISTAKEN
    You saw them
    An aphotic chocolate
    Were they brown or black?
    Regardless, they were arrows.
    Aiming at your remains
    The final fragment
    Of the fabric
    That frayed
    Constantly
    Consistently
    Every breath you took
    Led you back there
    And your lungs
    Had exceeded their limit
    Your ribcage bruised
    With blindness
    With frustration
    With The Ache
    You see them now
    Darker than before
    Hiding a beast
    Mercy deceased
    ...Or is it?
    All you see are knives
    But all I see is guilt
    Maybe we're both wrong
    And that was our flaw
    Still, I see yours
    A tranquil sapphire
    Masking joy or pain?
    Regardless, they were targets
    A bullseye in progress
    The blue would become
    The burgundy
    That bleeds
    Constantly
    Consistently
    You see the devil with daggers
    But inside
    Is a lonely, lost, little girl
    And all she wants is a hug
    THE TEXT
    My only friend glowed
    Green symbols and your name
    The letters burned my eyes
    And bounced around my brain
    Crowded with questions
    Clouded with cautions
    I know all too well
    Your twisted, taunting game
    A quiet violence
    It sent a seismic wave
    My fingers, my arms, my nerves
    My aimless little veins
    Leading to hollow
    Seeking to borrow
    Never to return
    ‘Its’ torn, tattered remains
    Only a handprint
    Pink refuses healing
    Prominent guilt reminds me
    My cheek should not have feeling
    Painted guilt with force
    Tainted with remorse
    A falsely accused
    Tempestuous twit, stealing
    Cavity had a cause
    A chest without a Beat
    A Boom
    A Break
    An Ache
    Lucky, demons can cheat
    Rhythm out of time
    Stanza out of rhyme
    Torture a heatless
    Until declared defeat
    A virtual code
    Hides an apology?
    Your regretful words
    Sign your psychology
    Demonic dream’s end
    I’ve changed into your friend
    Sudden change of heart
    Taught through technology
    Almost if instant
    The pain fades from my cheek
    And deep inside the hollow
    There’s a
    Beat
    Beat
    Beat.
    FOR OLD TIME'S SAKE
    It was missing
    Supposedly degraded
    In a raging flame
    Of Selfishness
    And Greed
    And Apathy
    And however else you had defined me
    My chest’s abyss
    Its absence defined me then
    My self worth dissolved
    Which satisfied
    Your Need
    And Desire
    To torture my remaining sanity
    The lightbulb sparked?
    Deep within your twisted mind
    It didn’t make sense
    When did that happen?
    And How?
    And Why?
    You really are delusional this time
    In this whole scene
    You were never to be blamed
    Nothing was yours
    It was my heart
    My fault
    My selfishness
    So naturally, I am the demon
    But then you said
    In amongst my confusion
    ‘You’re not a demon
    You are my friend
    So Breathe
    Exhale your stress
    So we can start again, for old time’s sake’
    IS IT A HURT?
    You watch a scene​
    And glimpse a moment​
    Accounting for your status​
    Maybe the reasons aren't clear​
    Yet
    But you can still feel it​
    It was a look​
    That reminded you​
    Of the unforgivable​
    A shriveled heart thrown to waste​
    Yes
    No illusions this time​
    Your stupid mind​
    It pulled the trigger​
    Sent an abundance of pain​
    Through your soul, back to your chest​
    How
    Does that make any sense?​
    But is it a hurt?​
    Or a pain of joy?​
    Is it a sink?​
    Or a jolt in the void?​
    Then there was a kiss​
    And the flashbacks flooded​
    And your confidence frayed​
    As did your ego​
    As did your conscience​
    As I was on the other line​
    Vodka-soaked tears​
    Revitalised my fears​
    And in that instant I knew​
    It wasn't your hurt​
    It wasn't your pain​
    It wasn't an act​
    Of your memory-ridden brain​
    It was a reminder of your mistake​
    That only another fool could make​
    And when that time comes, I'll feel sorry for him​
    GREY

    I only see my world in black and white
    The present is a curse in my twisted little mind
    Everything I see is grey, apart from your blue eyes
    Is that because you're still alive?

    I like nostalgia, I don't like today
    I like nostalgia, I don't like today
    I love my world in shades of grey

    I like nostalgia, and the games it plays
    I like the memories, they toy with my brain
    I love my world when its all grey

    Too much colour then something's not right
    One more colour and I'll be blinded by light
    Everything I see is grey, apart from your blue eyes
    Is that because you're still alive?

    I like nostalgia, I don't like today
    I like nostalgia, I don't like today
    I love my world in shades of grey

    I like nostalgia, and the games it plays
    I like the memories, they toy with my brain
    I love my world when its all grey

    You're a fragment that I kept in my mind
    I really am delusional this time
    You're a fragment in this little grey world of mine

    You're a fragment of hope in my day
    You're a part that will never go away
    You're a fragment of colour in my grey

    I like nostalgia, I don't like today
    I like nostalgia, I don't like today
    I love my world in shades of grey

    I like nostalgia, and the games it plays
    I like the memories, they toy with my brain
    I love my world when its all grey
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    Thread by: T3F, Aug 6, 2012, 9 replies, in forum: Archives
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    Nyan Cat

    ^this.....
    Post by: T3F, Aug 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    Nyan Cat

    Age is only a number...

    And a prison cell is just a room
    Post by: T3F, Aug 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    How would we like to drop the subject and get back to Amber's sleeping problem? :)
    Post by: T3F, Aug 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    106 VMs
    4906 Visitors
    Post by: T3F, Aug 6, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    You gotta understand that mothers are actually very accepting people. There is no way in hell a mother will disown their child. All she wants is the best for you, so she's only getting pissed off because she's worried about you. I myself am a VERY narrow-minded Christian, but just because I don't agree doesn't mean I don't accept. Sooner or later you are going to have to tell her, and the longer you put it off the worse it will be. Tell her that you are keeping an open mind about a diety. That's good, it gives your mother hope that you'll come around. Tell her when you think its right, and you'll know when that is, and then give her time to accept it. Patience is a virtue...my friend.
    Post by: T3F, Aug 6, 2012 in forum: Help with Life
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    i was unwilling to quit the sight of those that remained to me


    Thats a sweet sentence, Frankenstein
    Post by: T3F, Aug 3, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    That's not very nice...
    Post by: T3F, Aug 3, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    Good point.
    With me, I tend to be a little more talkative on here (and by a little I mean heaps) and I can be myself around here. I found that with me it has to do with reactions: whether or not you can see them and how much you care about them. See, in a social situation you can see the other person, and you can make judgements on their facial expressions, body language, etc. Here, you can't see, you just type whatever the hell you feel like and see what happens next. I may more or less be paranoid or overly observant but thats what I find. The only thing that rattles me up on here is when I see a reply to a thread I've posted, because I don't know what it will say until I've clicked on the thread and I don't know whether or not it will be a positive or negative reaction. That may just be me though :)
    Post by: T3F, Aug 3, 2012 in forum: Discussion
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    If Im not wrong, elements should have the magic wand tool. Select white area-select inverse-clear. Thats pretty much it.
    Post by: T3F, Aug 2, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    I'm leaning towards the new usergroup

    The only issue I have with Premium overhaul is that the existing premmys who don't meet the new requirements are going to lose their ranks...

    ...unless that doesn't happen...

    what if EXISTING Premmys can keep their ranks (lets face it, it was hard enough achieving it the first time) and then we do the premium overhaul?
    AND THEN If we need to keep up Premmy activity, we do the new usergroup.

    At the moment I'm going for the new usergroup, unless my above suggestion is an option, then I'm voting for both :)
    Post by: T3F, Aug 2, 2012 in forum: Feedback & Assistance
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    Then have a sit and talk with him. He needs help, and if he doesn't do anything to stop his alcoholism its only going to get worse-for him, for you, for your mum. Get him therapy, rehab, or something. You must call the cops if it gets really bad though, because they'll help you guys out (or I've been watching far too much SVU lately :P ). Still, they can help you out. Before you do anything though, talk to him while he's sober. Explain to him that when he's drunk he scares the crap out of you and your mum. Depending on his reaction, get him help. Like I said, if he refuses to do anything about it, that's when you call the cops.
    Post by: T3F, Aug 2, 2012 in forum: Help with Life
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    ...
    Kinda reminds me of Xaldin's 'Jar of Dirt' thing, but that one is better than this -_-
    Post by: T3F, Aug 1, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    Because members need something to differentiate between the prems and the nobles.
    Not like the name really matters anyway, itll just be a part of the key at the bottom of the forum page.

    I see what you did there :P

    Serious note though, if we have mods and super mods why cant we have prems and super prems?
    Post by: T3F, Jul 31, 2012 in forum: The Spam Zone
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    Hello, my lovely discussion forum. I would like to pose a small question to you:

    Can you hold up a decent, civilised, non awkward conversation with your Ex? If no, why? If yes, how?

    Personally, Ive been single 74 days (according to this Days Until app) and Im happy. But my ex was my best friend before we started going out. I really want to try and hold up a decent conversation without him paying me out about something. It should be known that I did the breaking and therefore any spiteful tones he gives me are completely my fault. I just wanna know about your experiences. How do you deal with the awkwardness around your ex?
    Thread by: T3F, Jul 31, 2012, 12 replies, in forum: Discussion