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Here's the thing: currently I am going through a whole heap of major exams, and I've kept a positive mentality about them, knowing that I can only do my best blah blah, but I keep getting this feeling that is literally nausiating: what if my best isnt good enough?

The way my teachers describe these exams is pretty much like "you will be given a number that will determine your fate, your job, and generally the rest of your life."
Now I know that's far-fetched. That's not bothering me. What is bothering me is the pressure that I'm getting from the people around me to do well. My goal is to get an overall mark of at least 80, which is possible, but lately I'm feeling like I would barely scrape a 60, and that scares me.

I also have one of those really annoying friends who almost cried because she only got 90 on a test that I got 62 on, and she expects sympathy from me. We do the same subjects, so I always feel like Im competing with her and because some of her marks are SO much higher than mine, I feel kinda...dumb. To be honest, I hate talking to her about my exams because she's always like 'I didn't study! I'm going to fail so hard!' And I agree with her, until we get the tests back and she gets 24/25 and I get 16, and she cries. Its kinda hard to expect sympathy from someone you're beating by so much, don't you think?

The other thing is my parents, my mother especially. She's scaring me out of my study breaks, saying stuff like "every minute you dont study is another mark you lose." and stuff like that. I went to go study a few hours ago because I have an exam tomorrow morning, and I literally broke down on the realisation that I didnt know anything.

It just seems like my anxieties are kicking in again. Suddenly there is so much pressure on me to do better than my best, suddenly there is so much pressure from everyone else and people who make me feel like I absolutely cannot do anything. Its gotten to the point where I've lost my motivation to study, and its not usual procrastination, it is LITERALLY accepting that I am a dumb f*ck and I will never be good enough. I dunno, suddenly I'm just not ok...help?