i mostly feel uncomfortable with my body. i'd say i've dropped about 15 pounds over the school year and i've been told im "too skinny" by alot of people. but i beg to differ. issues at home or with friends? well, with my friends its almost like they're too self-centered to notice or care about anything going on in my life, and my parents, well thats a different story. :\
i'm honestly not too sure, it might be my dads alcohol problem, or i might just have a disorder. i can say though that i'm finally seeing the disorder now after almost a year; when i vomit it makes me feel better than i usually do, and it kind of scares me. i've told my parents and 2 friends, but i haven't told them i started again. i was actually not thinking about it as much and i was eating normal and everything, i was quite content. then we went away for awhile and i ate a couple things i dont normally eat. and it completely threw me off balance, i feel like i'm at the start again.
i think i have a bit of a problem. well, more like a small problem blown up and worse then it was 11 months ago.
i'm basically 100% sure i have an eating disorder. i've been put into counseling a few times and they even told me i suffer from an eating disorder, and it didn't help much, just made me think about it more. i'm "bulimic", sometimes a bit of anorexia comes in, and i hadn't thrown up for 2 months. i was doing fine until a few days ago, and i feel like i'm back where i started. the feeling is always there, and i dont know what i should do anymore. :S
..anyone have any suggestions ?