Just what it says on the tin. I'd like some advice on what I can do that doesn't involve medication.
Here's why. Working my way down.
Frequent headaches that sometimes go into migraines. They last for hours in varying degrees. The good ones are gone in an hour or two. The bad ones... I had a migraine that lasted a full 24 hours. During which I could not even wear my glasses or use an ice pack on my head. It was almost like my scalp had become hypersensitive.
All these headaches cause tension in my neck which makes it and my shoulders hurt. I also suspect that I have something pinched since there are times where it feels like my upper arms are numb. Sometimes there's also a tingling sensation.
My back frequently hurts with an ache that likes to travel. Some days it's in my upper back. Others it's in my lower back.
My ankles pronate(lean inwards). I know they're supposed to pronate to a certain degree during the motion of walking but mine do it even when stationary. I've twisted/sprained both of them at least once so I suspect there's a good deal of arthritis in them and my feet. Supported by the discomfort of changes in air pressure and the fact my ankles click and/or crack when I walk.
Sleeping is hard when you cannot get comfortable in your own bed. And when I do sleep, I have bad dreams that my feet are going to break off. I spend a lot of time sleeping in a recliner in the living room with heating pads.
I do have insoles in my shoes. If I'm not careful with my ankles, I could develop plantar faciitis in my feet.
I do know heating pads work as I have several. And I have a slew of ice packs in the freezer. I just would not rather take all sorts of pain relief pills because they can do a number on your stomach and since my stomach hates me as it is I'd rather not make it worse.
Also I don't have access to heating pads or ice packs at work.
I'm only 31. Not 71?
So any sort of help at this point would be appreciated.
Kept you waiting, huh?
I'm just posting this from tumblr since it might save someone a lot of hassle.
For those of you that might be affected and are using FireFox, I found this which might help until you can update. It's just as addon that disables Flash.
Keep safe everyone.
I'll keep everyone posted as I find more information. As is, the only thing was a breaking news alert on the television and on CBS's twitter account.
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As I type this, I am angry. There is no logical reason for me to be so. There was no trigger for this. There was no reason. And perhaps that is contributing to that a little. If I knew why I wouldn't be like this.
I can feel my pulse skyrocketing. My chest feels tight. And there is just that desire to scream, yell, have some kind of o u t b u r s t. Which is at odds with my given nature to want as little attention on me as possible.
Normally, I channel my incoherent rage into some sort of activity. Be it working out or cooking or writing. Just any way for me to burn off some excess steam. However, my legs hurt from working extra yesterday so no working out. I just cleaned up the kitchen so no cooking.
I've already punched a wall a few days ago.
I just worry about talking directly with people fearing that I might say something to hurt them when I can't hold myself accountable for my actions. When I fear I'll shout at them.
I just...don't have any control over my emotions right now.
I'm being pulled in about thirty different directions with my emotions and none of them are positive. Something has to give. Something has to break. And I fear that something will be me at some point or some completely innocent bystander.
Things have been setting me off too easily. Things I should be used to by now.
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I've tried two different browsers but I just cannot get photobucket to load in either of them. It looks like it wants to load but it just doesn't complete the loading.
I've also tried hard refreshes and clearing my cache.
A number of different sites say it's still up but I just can't get it to load.
And all my links in the forums I've used them on are broken images.
help me plz
Today I've put together a little TRON inspired playlist for your consideration. Some are selections from the soundtrack, some are remixes, some are just there because they give me feelings, and some are inspired.
Tune in at 2pm est/1pm central.
It's going to be a wild ride.
Note: I've had to adjust the volume on at least one track. Which is indicated in red. You may have to adjust your own volume accordingly.
1. Daft Punk - The Grid (Alcala Remix)
2. Tron Legacy - Arena - Daft Punk
3. Journey - Separate Ways
4. Tron Legacy - Special Edition CD - Castor (4) [Daft Punk]
5. BRNY ft Tony Jay - Emotion 5 (Dj Ralmm Remix]
6. Joseph Trapenese - Dyson (David Hiller Remix)
7. TRON Legacy R3CONF1GUR3D - 06 0 C.L.U. (Paul Oakenfold Remix)
8. Daft Punk - Derezzed
9. mind.in.a.box - Control
10. Daft Punk - Rinzler (Basic Slack Remix)
11. Daft Punk - The Game Has Changed
12. Genesis - Land of Confusion
13. Daft Punk - Solar Sailor (Basic Slack Remix)
14. Celldweller - Retros
Skype just notified me about this so I feel like I should make a thread about it. Hope you enjoy(ed) it, whenever it happens.
Bet you weren't expecting this from me.
I know it's a tumblr link but it's very interesting.
To do this you'll want a pair of headphones or earbuds in both ears. For best results, listen to this in a closed room when it's dark, close your eyes, and settle in.
I wouldn't make it far in an interrogation because there's a certain point in here I just start laughing. See if you can find it. I'd probably be pistol whipped.
I've been kind of working on a little thing for a little over a year. I'm not sure I've spoken with any of you about it but I think it's interesting enough.
It started as a idea for a multi-fandom role play forum that unfortunately died from a lack of interest. Feel free to read up on it. Most things of note are in the 'Library' section under 'Lore'.
I will say that new ideas have been made since I made that forum. New inspiration and all that. Things have developed a bit more and I feel I could tinker more with a few things were Eden is concerned.
So ask away. And please keep silly questions to a minimum. That's my only request.
Am I going to make a reply and then chicken out by hitting backspace? I've gotten so nervous about posting or just even interacting with people on this forum.
Apparently I still remember my password for this site.
While I'm here I might as well see how everything's going.
You kids behaving yourselves?
I didn't want to post this in the Spam Zone because I am currently crying my eyes out and I don't want this to be taken the wrong way.
I had to put one of my cats to sleep this past Tuesday. A cat that was pretty much my constant companion for 10 years. I loved him to death and now he's gone.
His liver and several other vital systems were shutting down. He had fluid in his abdomen and he had virtually no muscle mass. We had no indication he was in any sort of pain until Tuesday morning. Up until that point he was happy and energetic. I didn't want to prolong his suffering.
He was in my dreams last night. Mom thinks it was his way of letting me know he was okay. But I had to go through seeing what could have been and having to wake up with the knowledge that he was gone all over again.
I put on a strong face at work but I've been crying for the past 2 hours. I keep thinking I see him out of the corner of my eye and that just hurts because he's not there. He won't be there.
I try to put on this facade that I have no emotions but now you see that I'm just as human as the rest of you. I do have feelings and right now they hurt.
Because I will never see this face again.
Rest in Peace, Lucky.
My self-imposed 2 month hiatus is done and I accomplished nothing.
I'm not sure how long it will last but I feel like I need to take a bit of a break from KHV. Normally I wouldn't bother posting something like this but I feel like being not so easy to predict. The last two times I left, I just left. Up and vanished and didn't tell anyone.
I'll still be on skype so if you have me added there you can still reach me there.
I just...I don't know. I feel like the site is getting dull lately. Maybe it's just me.
I'll check in from time to time but I probably won't post anything. I need to step back and breathe.
Focus on work and life and a few projects I'm working on.
So next time you think of typing that phrase, you might want to consider that the team who created the game in the first place got sick of hearing it.
Some of you might have seen a few of my stories here on KHV. Maybe you remember my KHV stories about Metal Gear Solid or maybe you've read my Pirate Story. The point is that I enjoy writing.
Or I did until yesterday.
I moderate on a little website called Valenth and there is an ongoing story there which I enjoy. And it got me thinking to something. Both of the links in my signature lead to my work. One is a multi-fandom role play forum which I think died in October sometime. I kept posting Lore articles in the hope that something, something would spark life on it. Something to collect interest. I've advertised everywhere I could and nothing has happened. I had planned real time events that never saw fruition.
I had considered writing out the plot to this forum out in story format but at this point I'm not sure why I should. If the response to the forum was so lackluster what would the response to the story chapters be?
The other link is a tumblr where I post my original novel containing characters and a plot I've been developing for literal years. A novel I'm not sure I can continue because of the mere thought of writing has brought me to the verge of tears.
I'm always told that people enjoy my writing and they want me to write more. But I keep looking back at that forum and I keep thinking that it's something I did and that these people saying the nice things are lying to me.
I'm not sure what hurts more. The thought of my friends lying to me or the thought of finding writing, something I enjoy, to be depressing. It might seem like a paltry thing to have to post a Help With Life topic about but...I don't know anymore.
I feel terrible for laughing during this.
I wish I was kidding.