Good evening people of KHV. I'm about to make some people really happy.
Tonight I want to shed some light on a few things many if not most of you have been in the dark about. Staff and regular members alike. See for about a year or so now or whenever the big "fight" happened, I have been struggling quite a bit personally. As it turns out when you mix high levels of stress, no breaks, and being too damn sensitive all the time, your vital signs start to get into the stupid zone. Lo and behold the admin who once ran a half marathon now had the blood pressure of a very unhealthy elderly man.
There are multiple tiers to the problems I have had with my experience as an admin so I kinda just want to break it down section by section.
Problem 1: If you didn't have a friend on the inside, the rules were applied to you as normal.
Contrary to popular belief, my life's goal isn't to rock the boat and make people I don't care for miserable. I am actually quite the softie, which is I am ALSO to blame for this issue. The fact of the matter is, the cliques formed on discord in a very rapid pace. We would see members saying vile things that would normally get an infraction on the spot without hesitation, but when that person spitting fire happened to be buds with the staff members they got a little more breathing room. This created a dance where one could go in on somebody, back off for a bit, let the infractions/warnings/random chat messages expire, then repeat.
As it turns out this can actually create tension within the staff team when one staff member enforces the rule on another staff member's friend and vise versa. It is disingenuous to not at least admit that this was incredibly rampant on many sides while the discord chat was active.
Problem 2: Scapegoats abound!
In the early stages one of the things I heard all the time from staff members, regular members, etc was that "discord is killing KHV", which was never really something I agreed with. The only thing discord did damage to was the lounge, which doesn't take up the entire website. Now Obviously Discord handles casual conversation better than KHV ever has. There is no denying this. So my thought was, why don't we make our "product" something other than casual and quick conversation. Content creation was the goal, and while not impossible, it would seem we didn't have the right hands for the job. There was a hyper focus on moderating the website (which was admittedly dead) and hiding out in the staff chat on discord (which created a divide between staff and userbase).
KHV was always doomed to fail if we didn't bring anything to the table, and while on site events are great, they are mostly for the users that already exist here. Keeping those members entertained and happy is important, very important, but the goal of growth was never really attempted in a way that would yield results.
Problem 3: The divide
This one probably isn't going to make the staff very happy, but it needs to be said. I've spoken to a handful of members (well, more than that who I have mentioned multiple times in the staff section) who feel that certain ideals were imposed on the userbase. Ideals that went beyond the scope of simple rule enforcement. This would also bring about rulings that benefit said ideals, making them concrete and absolute by extension. People were often grouped up and isolated. Their opinions, beliefs, needs, none of it mattered because it didn't line up with what some people thought was an absolute.
While I'm not here to debate morality or ethics, one thing I can say is that the cliquey attitude that fell upon the community far surpassed things we've seen before. When one clique makes up the majority of the people that enforce the rules, people walk out the door. This much is evident considering several replacement chats have been made and are thriving. I would know, I'm in one. I'm sure a lot of you are too.
So why give up? I'll tell ya why.
Throughout my time on KHV I have felt increasingly more and more alone. I've been condemned within the staff chat, dragged through the mud publicly by staff members and users alike, have made major sacrifices to my health, time, and financials (which doesn't count, I guess) -- yet despite all of this I am a "problem" Admin. I have seen staff members outraged with my absence over the summer despite the average "last message" date of the entire staff team to me being Feb. 2018. A simple message could have found out that I was dealing with multiple friends almost dying, losing my grandmother to dementia and Alzheimer's, and not feeling too great myself.
I've learned that I should be spending my time around people who care, not those who do not.
As of today I am resigning. It's been real KHV.
Don't go heavy on the slides. You'll put the audience to sleep.
Rat is a smooth operator.
As for the swearing, I don't really care what you say but you throwing a temper tantrum like a child isn't something I'm going to deal with. If...
Next, blaming the time margin is obscene. I wasn't staff in 2014, barely anyone on staff anymore was. To add onto that, so what if we change...
I've spent the past week deleting more threads than I can count (easily over 100 at this rate, if I had to guess) that were either extremely low...
Keeping sections clean has been a thing staff have done for over a decade. Also watch your language. If you have a problem settle it elsewhere.
You’ll also come to find that IF GIVEN THE CHANCE, the staff team will always be willing to find a compromise. That can’t happen when you don’t...
With all due respect a myriad of posts with no purpose to anyone else on the forum whatsoever spanning hundreds of posts is the definition of...
So long as I get the legendary, pure, awe inspiring, true gangsta: King Dedede, then we are good.
Dace Gavin Dance
Dance Gavin Dance for nearly a decade has been my go-to band when it comes to the hardcore/post-hardcore genre. What Dance Gavin Dance does so well as a band is mix two different types of vocals (by quite literally having two vocalists), that being one clean and one scream. This is very similar to the root or lower end of a piano or band provided a very much needed structure to the sound. By extension the "dirty" or screaming vocals actually highlights the clean vocals in a very pleasing way.
The other important thing to note about Dance Gavin Dance is that over the years they have switched vocalists (a lot). It is generally agreed upon that the two best clean vocalists from Dance Gavin Dance are Tilian Pearson and Jonny Craig. Tilian providing a very solid upper register, while Jonny provides a more raspy soul inspired tone. Both are great.
Spoiler: Tilian Pearson
Inspire the Liars:
We own the Night
Spoiler: Jonny Craig
And I Told Them I Invented Times New Roman:
Lemon Meringue Tie:
Jonny vs Tilian be damned, Dance Gavin Dance has been an incredible band for the past decade and hasn't let me down. These songs are great to rock out to, fantastic for when you are working out, or if you just wanna take your mind away from the world and feel the music.
My Score: 9.5/10
Wuddup Misty fan
Song aint bad though. I'd buy it.
If the goal here is to sell the idea of gun control, this bit above here quite honestly seems like a sub-par way of accomplishing that. For what its worth (not that it matters at all for what I'm saying) I am not pro gun, nor anti gun. Moderation in all forms is usually the way to go, as is realism. Guns in the United States aren't going away, I think that much is safe to assume.
Personal anecdotes can be a marvelous way to get a point across while maintaining that ever important "human connection", however I feel like this is a little overkill (with most of your posts in this thread not just this section). If you want to start off with something personal, I encourage it but understand the dynamic of the conversation. You have personal experiences, opinions, passions, etc but so does everyone else INCLUDING those who are pro-gun. If you wanna change minds I suggest finding middle ground that benefits both sides of the argument, otherwise people are going to be running in place forever.
This part in particular I have quite a few problems with. First and foremost, there is a very solid chance you aren't qualified to diagnose someone else's "mental stability", and even if you were I don't think many people would respect such a professional that goes around and casually slams said people on random internet forums. Going as far as to "avoid them while walking around" because you can "hear them talking to themselves". This is beyond messed up. They are people, they are just as important as you are, and deserve to be respected on a base level just like every other human on the planet.
Comments like this are in very poor taste and I don't see how it helps your argument at all. If anything it hurts it, as there are going to be people who read what you wrote and discredit everything you have to say solely on the grounds that you are unreasonable to people who are different. This isn't a call out, but more of a reaction. I don't know jack about you, who you are, where you came from and that doesn't matter. This is strictly about what you said.
On a final note some of what you said could probably be pegged as fear mongering which also probably isn't the nicest thing to be doing. Don't really understand how that helps anybody. Obviously being vigilant is of the utmost importance but as I said before, moderation is very important. Might be something to think about.
Rest easy, you'll be missed.
Gotta side with Advent on this one. Luckily most thermometers over the counter read high so the likelihood of you actually having 104f is kinda low.
I don't think your situation falls under the category of "not getting to have a flexible identity". You choose to have it this way. If you wanted to either become anonymous in the sense of who you really are, or wanted to simply generate a new online identity almost every social network/forum I know of is capable of doing this. You can change your username, twitter handle, name on facebook, and remove any and all people following you all in the same afternoon.
The fact of the matter is you love attention and from an outsider's perspective, seem to cling to it. The real interesting tidbit is you seem to be very passionate about the whole "content creator/content viewer interaction" process, yet aren't confident in your subs to not bail if you showed them everything.